New blog!

2007-06-29T23:48:00.000+08:00

I changed back the song,just so you know and the title and the words at the bottom of my entries.

I guess things in this blog should just be left the way it was and never be changed.

Just like how my love for you would never be changed.

2007-06-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!:)

I moved to-http://cherly06.livejournal.com/

Pls relink!Thanks!:)

2007-06-20T23:26:00.000+08:00

Lets play a different game than what we are playing.

Monday
Training for pop in the morning.Training was real tough and stress mans.Gave princess the brownies I baked for her.After pop training attended the camp.I set up 4 pits of fire by myself!Yayy!We had outdoor cooking.After outdoor cooking was dinner,princess bought for me kfc zinger meal,yayy:)Thanks princess:)After dinner was confidence walk,I and ruixin set up this really big space with twine all around.And they had to be blind folded and walk through it.And we bluff them there were all kinds of things in front of them when it doesn't even exist.Hahaha!It was really fun though.After that was packing of guides room,scoldings,bathing,supper.Lights out.Because the tent was too stuffy,we went to sleep outside guides room.Then it got too cold,so we went back to sleep in the tent.

Tuesday
Physical training in the morning,breakfast was super fun.Was playing with my juniors and running around in the canteen.The corn was disgusting pls!TSK.Was like eating stones.Qianyu bought for me macs big breakfast!Yayy,thanks qianyu:)After breakfast strike tent,horse shoe formation,lunch.Then it was team building games.Punishment and lecture,then break camp!I was freaking tired pls,so Went home to sleep.Woke at about 6 plus,met anna and ruixin for dinner.Had pepper lunch.Yum yum!Then we went to buy the glitter tattoo for this sat carnival.Went a nearby playground and test out the tattoos.Now I have two tattoos on my arm.Played with swing and all,chat.Anna took photos of me and I looked so ungalm=xAhhh!Went home about ten plus.

Today,training for pop in the morning.Training was really stressful.Training ended early though,yayy.After training went to meet kong rui at her mother workplace to help out.It was a childcare centre and they were having some activities on.Kinda fun helping out.Ate lots of ice cream.After that walked to hougang mall to eat my lunch.Had lunch at kfc.Ruixin came and join us.I was just bullying kong rui all along.Hahaha.Oops.And I even took her watch,her watch is nice!So I'm going to keep it till she comes back from camp.After that she went home,I and ruixin went to meet anna to eat dinner at jalan kayu.Anna seems real quiet though:(After dinner went home.

Camp was really fun though,I and ruixin were kinda slackers,cause we didn't have to take part in the things they do,we just have to teach them stuffs and make sure they do everything the correct way.And plan the activities.

All the trainings and camp plus going out,I fell sick.Well I shouldn't have slept outside guide room and catch a cold.Now I have cough and a sexy voice.Hahaha!My leg muscles isn't getting any better,its getting worse,it really hurts a lot and I can't walk properly:(

During this period of time,I have been tiring myself out,finding all kinds of stuffs to do. Sometimes when I'm like really tired,I will still do stuffs and go out.I won't stop till I'm really exhausted and when I really have to rest,it has come to a point where I will fall asleep anywhere when I usually I don't=xI don't know why am I doing this to myself either:(

I feel like as if I'm suffering from memory loss,or I should say that I blocking out things that I don't want to think or remember.I guess I'm just running away from stuffs I don't want to face.I really don't have the courage to face it,I'm REALLY mentally tired and stress out from what happened.All I want now is not to think about it,I will just let things be this way,it isn't the way I want it to be,but there is nothing I can do about it either.I know I what I really want and I know the answer,but I'm just not ready to face it all:(

I have been having this feeling for quite sometime,but I can't exactly figure out what is this feeling I'm having.Rah,its driving me nuts.

I'm going through so much now,I don't know much longer I can hang on:(

Okay,I'm really tired now,but I guess I will play com games for a while more then rest.

I can feel you are near me, even though you are far away.

2007-06-17T22:00:00.001+08:00

The more my heart can't get enough:)

Today,went to my grandma house in the morning with my mom.I felt like a really nice daughter to accompany her,normally I would be too lazy=xSo reached grandma house,just slacked there.My aunts asked me why am I so thin now!They said I lost weight!True enough,I went to weigh myself on the weighing machine and actually I was 57kg,now I'm 51 kg!YAYY!BEAMS:)Grandma cooked up a whole table of delicious food and lots of rice dumplings.Ate a lot.Yum yum!My mom bought home at least 18 rice dumplings.Whoo hoo!Went home at about 1.I baked brownies for my mom and for someone.Hahaha.I bet she will be super surpised.Yayy:)Pack all my camp stuff.Camp tml!Yayy!I can't wait:)

I really don't know what I should do:(

2007-06-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

Today went to pula ubin with ruixin and anna.I must say I really enjoyed myself even though it was superly tiring.After that went to hougang mall to have lunch at macs,went to ruixin house for a while then home.

Happy ONE YEAR anniversary princess!You have always been there for whether rain or shine,24/7.And seriously I don't think anyone else knows me best than you do.Thank you for all you have done for me!I love you very very much!:)See you on monday!

Replies for tags!
Twin:Its really nice to know that your are always there for me:)I love twin and youying!:)
Qianyu:Alrights SHIFU!Thanks to your enlightment I became happier:)

My leg muscles hurts:(Anyway,I'm off to dreamland now,I'm very tired.Goodnight everyone!:)

I don't know if I can take the stress.

2007-06-15T23:09:00.000+08:00

I love you anyway:)

I finally met up with twin,youying and the rest yesterday:)Beams!:)Dinner at chomps and we watched 2oo pounds beauty.Yayy:)

Today,swimming in the morning,15 laps!Lunched with anna and met up with ruixin to go jogging.Dinner with ruixin and jasmine.

Tml pula ubin with ruixin and anna!Yayy.Sounds like holiday for us:)

Next week is girl guides week,
mon-pop training plus camp.
tue-camp
wed-pop training
thur-pop training
sat-carnival at town

All along,I've been blind to the fact that actually life has been very good to me,there maybe a lot bad things that happened in my life one after another,but I guess I deserve it cause I didn't know how to treasure what I had and I didn't see happiness was always there.Its just whether I wanted to accept it or not.I took everything for granted.I seriously regret it.But now everything is different,I have to pick myself up and stop running away from stuffs which I was too afraid to face.Anyway,I can't run away from it for the rest of my life.Its time to face everything.I have decided to do something about my terrible attitude and life,if I don't change it,who will?It may be hard for me right now but I won't give up:)My life ain't that bitter!All I have to do its just open my eyes wide enough and see how nice my life is:)Even if its pretty bitter right now,it can't be anymore bitter.Like qianyu said,I have good friends like her!:)Whats more I could ask for.Beams:)

I have become more positive and I have STOP thinking too much,SERIOUSLY MIRCALES DO HAPPEN!HAHAHA:)

Twin!Pls take care!Remember that I'm always here for you,if nobody takes care of you,youying and I will:)Oh and remember to take your medicine though its sucks,drink plenty of water and get lots of rest!I hope you will get well soon.Then we can go out and have fun again!Yay!:)

Princess kwang sauyan!I missed you!:)

I rather not know anything:(

2007-06-14T15:45:00.000+08:00

I won't be updating that often,partly cause I'm pretty lost right now,so when I find myself back then I will update more regularly,another reason why is cause I don't wish to come online anymore,I afraid of the things I see.

I don't know what to believe in anymore,my only solution now is to run away from everything.I really don't know what to do.Maybe I'm just better off alone.I just can't explain what I'm going through right now.

I hope I will get to meet up with twin and youying this week,I missed them very much:(

This sat outing with ruixin and anna to pula ubin,finally!We've been wanting to go there.I hope we get don't lost there though=x

My heart feels so heavy sometimes,till the point where I can't breathe.

2007-06-12T13:12:00.000+08:00

I decided to revive my blog abit,changes here and there and I will let the photos do all the talking:)

That's when I love you by Aslyn

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than you'll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what

Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

2007-06-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

Ruixin,anna,qianyu,cui,princess,youying,twin:Thanks for being there for me when I was feeling really down and when I needed you guys the most.I appreciate it very much:)I love you all:)

Priscilla:Thanks for the advice you gave me,it really had a great impact on me.I know what I should do now:)Loves:)

I must say all this pain and sufferings that I'm experiencing now,I deserve it.But it doesn't mean that I should sit around and cry and do nothing and give up.I'm not a perfect person,I do make mistakes too,some mistakes that I shouldn't have made,but believe me,I'm trying my best to make it all up and become a better person.

I'm racing against time,
fighting against fate,
defying destiny.

I won't give up no matter what.

2007-05-30T03:18:00.000+08:00

Hello people,I won't be updating in a while cause I totally have no mood to do it anymore,it seems meaningless.

This is one last thing I want to post,

Create your own Friend Test here
Try it!See if you know me well enough:)


It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

Even if I can't see you,neither could I feel you,my heart still beats for you.

I will wait.

2007-05-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

I'm in no mood to update anymore,this is just a message for mins:)

Mins:Hello mins,I want to thank you for being there for me when I needed someone the most,especially those few days where I was really sick and really down.Yeah,we used to be in one big happy clique,those were the days.Its okay,I still have you!Yayy.I will always be there for you too:)Rain or shine,24/7 and yes,we will still be close no matter where the future brings us kays?Loves:)

I'm sick,really sick.Mentally,physically you name it,I got it.

I wonder how I'm going to survive this.

2007-05-25T07:43:00.000+08:00

終於作了這個決定,別人怎麼說我不理
只要你也一樣的肯定
我願意天涯海角都隨你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直溫習說服自己
最怕你忽然說要放棄

愛真的需要勇氣,來面對流言蜚語
只要你一個眼神肯定,我的愛就有意義
我們都需要勇氣,去相信會在一起
人潮擁擠我能感覺你,放在我手心裡
你的真心

終於作了這個決定,別人怎麼說我不理
只要你也一樣的肯定
我願意天涯海角都隨你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直溫習說服自己
最怕你忽然說要放棄

如果我的堅強任性,會不小心傷害了你
你能不能溫柔提醒,我雖然心太急
更害怕錯過你

愛真的需要勇氣,來面對流言蜚語
只要你一個眼神肯定,我的愛就有意義
我們都需要勇氣,去相信會在一起
人潮擁擠我能感覺你,放在我手心裡
你的真心

Nothing's too late,I'm gonna give it all I got.Its gets harder but it won't take away my love for you.

I miss you real bad,I live and breathe for you only:(

2007-05-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

School was pretty fun today:)Oh mans,I actually thought that school was fun.Hahaha!Anyway,I did crap for chinese papers.I and rachel were just slacking away after our papers and did number puzzles,it was fun!I bullied kong rui during recess,her face was super red for don't know what reason pls.So funny!Lol.When I got back in class and on the white board it was written there''Cherly lim,is she a hot babe?Yes or no?Pls explain your answer.HAHAHA!My classmates were just teasing me.So funny pls.Did chinese papers again.Slacked till school ended.After school walked to compass with kaylyn and angelia.Then I trained down to city hall to meet anying to get her I pod video.Due to some problem with her atm card,we had to go back to her house to get cash and get back to sim lim square to buy her I pod video.Hahaha.So she got her I pod video.Then send her home,I went home.

Birthday pictures are up!:D

Ruixin!I never mia la!I where got busy?Meet up with you soon kays!I know you miss me very much!Hahaha!

Anying:I'm very sorry for what happened today:(

2007-05-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

I don't love you,like I did yesterday.

Yesterday,I went swimming in the afternoon alone.Hahaha!It was good.I got a pretty good tan.Yayy:)Swam about 12laps then went home to rest for a while.After resting,headed down to tampines mall to meet anying:)We wanted to catch a movie but too bad there were no good seats so instead we went to have our dinner.Ate at pizza hut:)We ordered soups,pizza,chicken drumlets and curry baked rice.We ordered so much like greedy pigs=xIt was filling and nice:)After that went to the arcade to play house of dead 4.We are kinda addicted to that game.Hahaha!After that send her back her home.On our way to her house,we played like hand games.Lol.It was really fun,and she accidently hit my face so now I have a cut on my face:/Reached her house,stayed at the playground and waited for my parents.We decided to slide down the slide and our pants got really wet cause it rained.Lol.Anying went up first,then my parents came and fetched me home.

Today met up with anying:)She came over to my house.We bought food rice dumplings and bubble tea.Had laksa too cause my parents bought it for me.We also rented two vcds.Watched the return and it wasn't that nice.So we decided to watch stay alive and it was a pretty good movie.Slacked at my house.I had fun disturbing her!I must say that she fell asleep on my bed and she drooled on my bed!Oh mans.Anyway I bet she is going to kill me when she sees this.HAHAHA!Finally she woke up and so we headed down to tampines mall to play house of dead 4.Then waited for her dad to come and meet her,I went home.

Wheee!I love precious very much!:D

Replies for tags!
Natasha:I will link you up!
Kong rui:I didn't want to celebrate my birthday cause I had my reasons.

We had it all,but now its gone.

And so I moved on.

2007-05-19T01:23:00.001+08:00

Today this ends.

Tuesday
Met anying after school,she came and fetch me:DYayy.Went to my house and slack.Just chat all the way till 5 plus then went to meet min min,cui and anna.Anna was the earliest there pls.Had our dinner at chomps!:)Ate stingray,salad you tiao,hokkien mee.Yum!After dinner,we actually wanted to go to a nearby playground but instead we went to princess house:)We treated her house like its as if our own house.Throwing her soft toys around,whacking each other and ocuppied her whole bed.HAHAHA.Had a lot of fun at her house.Went home at 10 30.

Wednesday
Chinese papers sucked.I just anyhow do it and chat with rachel.Checked our ss and science papers after school.For science overall,I got 30/100,thats sad but never mind.What was really depressed was my ss paper!I got 17/50 for it!? And I worked like superly hard for it?Tsk!Rah!Anyway,after school went out with rachel and emmelyn.They wanted to treat me lunch for my birthday.Awww:)Went to j8 and had our lunch at cafe cartel.Ate fish and prawns.Superly filling pls.Caught a movie after lunch,I watched spiderman 3 again.Its good I must say.Rachel was so funny pls,she got scared at parts where the sound effects were loud.HAHAHA.And at the ending part,I was crying and laughing,I had no idea why either.After movie,went to precious house,surprised her and all,the home around 10 plus.Thanks emmelyn and rachel for the early birthday celebration!I had a great time with you all:)

Thursday
That day was my birthday!:DYayy!:DI didn't attend school though.Celebrated my birthday with anying:DFirst met up at city hall.When I met her she was shouting happy birthday while we were walking around.She seem even more happy than me when its my birthday.so funny la she.Wanted to catch a movie but then there wasn't any nice movies to watch.So we went to play arcade.Had a lot of fun there!After that we went to eat hotdog buns.Yum!Then we went to candy empire and shopped.She bought some chocolates and sweets.Then we drank clam chowder at ljs.Shopped around marina square and played arcade again.Then we had dinner at New york.The food there was nice!Anying actually made an excuse of going to the toliet when she went to buy my birthday cake:DAwww,so sweet:DAfter dinner we headed down to eslpande.Bought out my birthday cake.blew out the candle and made my wish.YAYYY:DStayed there for quite awhile then went home.

Friday
I rotted at home for the whole day.I didn't go school again.Just watch youtube and tv,eat and sleep.Hahaha!What a pig I am pls.Met mins at about 7 plus,went to sengkang sulpture park.Sat there and chat.Then we decided to go back to compass and get some snacks.Ate at 7-eleven there,chat a while more then went home:)

I will upload my birthday pictures when I get it from anying:)

I want to thank,ruixin and cui for wishing me on their blogs.natasha and princess for wishing me on my friendster,tagboard and sms.Anna,mins,adel,claudine,jaclyn,jijing and many more,thank you everyone for your birthday wishes!Love you all!:)

Anying:Anying,thank you for everything on my birthday and wishing me at 12am,I really appreciate it that you took the time and effort to plan all of that.And your presents,plus treating me dinner.Really thanks a lot.We may have our quarrels at times,but do remember everythime we quarrel,it shows that we care about each other.I had a awesome time with you on my birthday,it was a very memorable birthday celebration.I love you so much precious!:D

Replies for tags!
Natasha:Hello natasha!I will see you in school on monday kays!Loves!Thanks for your birthday wishes:)
Sauyan:Princess!Thanks for your birthday wishes!:)
Kong rui:You didn't wish me happy birthday!:(Where is my present!I didn't ps you,you ps me first:)

I'll face myself,I'll start again and whatever pain may come.

Letting go of what I was,of what I've done.

2007-05-15T15:23:00.000+08:00

I AM SMART BUM! NOT SILLY BUM (:
says anying the greatest person ever lived.

2007-05-14T19:08:00.000+08:00

While I clean this slate with the hands of uncertainty.

Today is like fuck,school was like horrible,tsk.The whole day was just to do chinese paper 1 and 2 and thats what we are going to do till chinese O levels.Got back my chinese and english mid year.I got B3 for chinese and a C6 for english:(Rah!So after school went out with mins,kong rui and monster.Shopped at bugis for kong rui bag.Had chicken rice for lunch.Then bused home.

Replies for tags!
Mins:Err.Your present ar?Next time.Hahaha.Anyway I think you look nice in that photo thats why I put it up.Oh and,I'm sorry for today mins:(
Geraldine:Hello,yeah,its just three more days:)

I’ve drawn regret,from the truth of a thousand lies.

To cross out what I've become and let go of what I've done.

2007-05-13T16:23:00.000+08:00

Smarty,alien,slippery monster!:D

Mins,cherly:D

Nothing going right and everything is a mess.

Pictures that we took after steam boating are up.I'm feeling kinda of crappy now,oh well.Shruggs.Anyway,I decided to rot at home today cause apprently nobody's free due to mother's day.I have no idea so far how did I kill time but somehow I did and now time seems to be passing way too slow:(Having loads of thoughts in mind.Maybe I'm just thinking too much.I:(Last part of this entry is below this picture that was taken quite long ago before our N-levels during one of our mugging sessions.Mins is my ''mom'',so here goes,

Happy mother's day!I love you very much!:D

This emptiness is killing me,I wonder why I waited so long.

Its always there but just never spoken.

2007-05-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

Sauyan drew it for me!YAYY!I love sauyan loads!:D

Me and kong rui:D

I can't move,I can't look away.

This photo I and kong rui took it together quite some time ago.Anyway,went steam-boating with mins,kong rui,maylene and janet!At first when we reach marina bay,we just board this van cause we thought it will take us to the steam boat place.And we didn't realise that it was bring us to boon keng as it has moved there.HAHAHA.So in the end we went to boon keng and had steam boat there-.-The food there was quite nice.Was having fun cooking the food.And talked about loads of funny stuffs.After steam-boating,went back to compass and slack there for a while,took lots of photos.Then homed around 11plus:)

I will upload the photos we took today another time!

Iris:Hello iris!:)HAHAHA.

To think everything would be okay,but its not.

I lied to myself,I was wrong.

2007-05-12T15:49:00.000+08:00

Hello world!I'm feeling real bored so I decided to blog.Last night,anying came over to my house and stayed over.She bought for me this tigger that its head nods by solar energy.So cute pls!Watched letters of death with her again.Then we slept at around 2am.Woke up at about 8plus today.Anying slacked at my house till 10plus then she went home.Now I'm just stoning at home.So far what I did was to eat,watch tv,did a jigsaw puzzle,msged cui and wrote a letter.I can't wait for steam boating later on!Yayy!Whoo hoo:)

I'm having mixed emotions now,I don't what to feel or think anymore:(

Anying!Thank you for coming over and taking care of me.And the tigger you bought.Yayy!You rock,I love you many many!:D

Replies for tags!
Anna:Aiya!You got the wrong idea-.-
Geraldine:Hello,I'm fine.Don't worry:)
Twin:Hello twin!I missed you very much,don't worry,we are gonna meet up during june holidays!Lots to catch up with you:)
Sauyan:Hello princess.Sorry that I went offline without getting the picture from you.I didn't have an affair with my porridge-.-

2007-05-11T21:04:00.000+08:00

Isn't anyone trying to find me?Won't somebody come take me home.

Woke up early today to meet kong rui.She cooked for me dumplings and wrote for me a letter.Yay:)I finished my science mcq within half an hour and I fell asleep.So exams are finally over,no more stress plus studying.Whoo hoo!Waited for mins to finish her paper,went to compass and had lunch at mos burger.Then met up with kong rui and rented a horror movie to watch at my house.Kong rui,mins and I was just screaming away throughout the movie.HAHAHA.It was freaking disgusting pls.So after the movie I was disturbing kong rui,was having so much fun and suddenly I cried.Yeah,I cried.Most likely I'm just mood swinging.Oh well.Kong rui and mins slack in my house till 5 plus then they went home.So yeah,continued my endless crying session till 8.Oh fuck.Tsk.

Kong rui was real nice today,she cooked dumplings,wrote a letter and a note,made a band for me,let me bully and vent my anger on her and let me cry on her shoulder till her uniform was wet.Kong rui,I just want to say thanks a lot,all this things you did for me,I feel really touched.And you were there when I needed someone.Thanks!I love you very much:)

Min min!Thanks a lot too for accompanying me throughout the afternoon and hear my whinings and be there for me!I love you very much too!:)Yeah,playtime soon!:)

Anna!Thanks for talking some sense into me.Hahaha.I love you very much too!:)

Oh and I miss kwang sauyan!Finally msged her after a million years:)

I'm so tired of the same old thing,I sorted out my thoughts,its time for a change.

It's a damn cold night ,I'm trying to figure out this life.

No one likes to be alone.

2007-05-10T19:21:00.000+08:00

I think its time.

Maths paper 2,I really screwed the paper.I intended to do that anyway.HAHAHA.I even had the time to stone!After maths paper,went to compass with mins to slack at mos burger.We chat about lots of stuff:)Yay.Chat till around 12plus,I went off to meet anying at bishan.Had pasta mania for lunch.Then we went to the library to read fairy tales!Lol.Slack there then went to foodcourt to eat dumplings.Then send her home then I went home.

Kong rui:I shall be nice and relink you,faster say I'm nice:DWhy must I bring you go purple light place?Give me a good reason.Hahaha.I see my name all over your blog posts and you said you missed me,so I can conclude that you miss and love me very much!HAHAHA!I'm not angry with you la.I just think you are really stupid you know,how stupid can you get?Oops,anyway I think you know what I'm talking about.I don't see why you must rush yourself and get attached in such a short time.Tsk.

You know,I really never take you as a subsitute,you cannot be compared to her,not even anyone.You are you,I love you for who you are.To me,you are the best.No one has ever been so nice to me before,all the things you have done for me,I'm very grateful to you.I feel really happy,just being with you,maybe I don't show it,but honestly,all this times that I have been with you,I was really happy.Things just ain't turning out well for us now,but I hope we get back to the times when we just knew each other.I believe those times,we were much more happier.Don't think too much kays.I know I have not been myself lately,I know I wasn't like this last time,there are some things that I actually thought I could pretend everything was okay,but I realised,its all coming back to me now.I hope you will trust me more and give me some time to get over some things,give me a chance,to prove my words are not just words.I'm saying all this is because I want to let you know,my heart only beats for you and no one else.This time,let me be the one to care for you,to be there for you and to love you.I promise:)

Its all coming back now.

I was wrong.

2007-05-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

The way your innocence tastes

Today,it was the FIRST time I was actually late for an exam.I overslept!I woke up at 7 50 when the my history exam started at 8.HAHAHA.I rushed to school though.I screwed history paper pls.Rah!So after history exam I went home,watch zhong ji yi ban for a while,then went to meet anying at hougang mall.She actually forgot to bring her hp-.-tsk.Anyway,went to eat carrot and pumpkin cake,dumpling and tang yuan.Whoo hoo!Xin fu de gan gue:)After that went back to my house.We talk and laugh and play and eat and watch tv and see my baby photos till around 8plus then anying went home.

I think I shouldn't think so much.Ya,I shouldn't.HAHAHA.

Hello mins!Okay,I will cheer up!You say one ar,we can hang till really late.Yay!I love staying out late:DI miss purple light place too!

I can't pretend that I won't think about you when I'm older,cause we never had our closure.

I think you should know.

2007-05-08T20:12:00.000+08:00

I love this silly bum very much.Happy 3th month anni precious!

I don't have to say much,I just want to be with you.

Yesterday,nothing much happened.Except for exams.My exams actually last till 4plus.Rah.I screwed my lit paper 2 and my chem paper.Anyway screwing chem paper was what I was intending to do already.Hahaha!

Today,bio paper 2!Oh my,it was pretty difficult.Mostly I wrote crap.Some of my answers don't even make sense,some were very funny.Lol.Anyway,after exams went to meet mins for a while.Then went to do some shopping at town and city hall.After that went to meet anying:DHad dinner at white sands.Then send her home,then I went home.

Tml history paper,I think I can do well.Hahaha!

I'm sad,I'm really sad:(

Happiness,I don't know whats that anymore:(

2007-05-06T21:04:00.000+08:00

What I feel for you more and more each day:)

Lets go back to the beginning.

Hello people!Finally I'm updating my blog.Been too busy and my laptop crashed.Only got it fixed today.Okay so I'm just going to blog about today,the rest of the missing entries I will blog after my mid-years.Sorry for the late tag replies!

Went to get a hair cut in the morning.Then went to meet anying!:)Went to her house nearby macs to study.Had breakfast too.Studied for about three hours plus,then we decided to go pasir ris beach to cycle and feed cats!HAHAHA.Cabbed down.So we rent our bikes and cycle around to look for cats.We fed about five cats at least.Yayy!After that we headed down to tampines mall.Ate pasta mania and went to play arcade.Then send her home then I went home:)

Oh and yes,anying gave me a new urban male top,a card and a tiger key chain.YAYYY!Thank you anying!I love you very very much!:D

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Cui:Hello cui!Chomps date after my mid-years!Yayy,cui owes me a chomps date:)
Claudine:HELLO MONKEY!HAHAHA.You also like never go school one leh.You are so funny,so excited when you found my blog.Lol.Loves lots too:)
Geraldine:Hello,sorry for mia-ing for so long.
Michelle:Min min!Mins!Mins square!Mean mins!HAHAHA.I update le!Study hard too:)
Kong rui:You stupid dinosaur.Lol.Give me a good reason why I should relink you and you don't update often one okay!I know you miss me when I'm not in school,must be I'm too cute,thats why.HAHAHA!

I don't remember whats its feels like,to be beside you.It been too long.

I told myself I won't miss you.

2007-04-26T13:39:00.000+08:00

Cause I'm not leaving you anymore.

Wednesday
Went over mins house and stayover.Met up with at compass first.Then we went over to punggol park for while to slack.After that ate a bit of supper at the coffeeshop nearby.Went back to mins house.Throughout the whole night I was jus whining away cause my niang and my precious doesn't want me anymore:(I actually cried and fell asleep.Woke up at about 7 plus.Was really tired pls.Washed up and all.Then min and I took a bus to school.Kong rui was being so nice to cook for us dumpling in the morning.And she wrote a letter to me saying its not from her-.-Hahaha!But it cheered me up though.Thanks kong rui:)I didn't know why did I go to school for seriously.Its the first time in my whole life in sjc that I actually DIDN'T HAVE ANY LESSON at all!Omg.Was feeling so freaking happy pls.The whole day I had free periods cause all my lesson teachers never came.HAHAHA.Yayy!For the first three periods,I was replying letters.Then its was recess.After recess I was learning F language.And I learn quite a lot!Hahaha!Took photos with my class!Played hangman,throwing mangets at the board.So much fun pls!Five periods in school never passed by so fast before pls!Whoo hoo!After school went to compass with kong rui,monster,mins and yiping.Anying joined us later on.Studied for a while then yiping and kong rui decided to go back to school.While me,anying,monster and mins went to heartland mall.Walked around then went to macs to study.I was really grumpy throughout the whole afternoon.Oh well.Sighs.Anying and I left at around 6 to have dinner at tampines mall.We had dinner at seoul garden!We ate like a lot?And we actually got to eat deer meat.First time mans!Oh my,it was so nice.Made ice kachang too!Hahaha.We were having so much fun cooking and making food.Whee:DAfter dinner went to anying house.Slacked there for a while,then cabbed home.Reach home at about 11plus.

Today,slept till about 12 plus.I didn't go school as I was too tired.Going to meet mins and monster and maybe kong rui at compass later.Then going to meet anying later at six.She is going to nayang JC for final selections.I hope she will get into the combined school:)

I really feel unwanted.I feel that mins and precious doesn't want me anymore.I'm not just being funny about it,being whiney and grumpy.I'm seriously upset.Maybe cause my ''dad'' left thats why I care so much.I don't want to lose my ''mom'' too:(Neither do I want to lose my precious.I love them very much.VERY VERY MUCH:(Sometimes I don't know why I'm so protective of myself.Its like I so afraid of this and that.And I tend to think too much till I get really upset.I don't like changes.I don't like moving on with life.I hate it.Maybe cause I have gone through so much unhappy things in life that I sometimes I expect that something bad will for sure happen.And when I expect that something bad will happen,I get really upset.Cause it isn't something I want that to happen.I should really stop thinking too much.Sometimes,I just cant help it.I'm so afraid of losing people I loved very much.Especially my precious.I know,one day,we have to go our separate ways and move on with life.I know.I don't ever want that day to come.I want to be with her always.I don't want her to leave:(I'm very sure I want to spend the rest of my life with her.

Okay,I shall update again tonight,here are some photos I took yesterday!

Having fun in class!

Me and anying at seoul garden:D

Our ice kachang:)

Kellie!Yeah!We will have our airport date soon:)

You have been my life,and I never planned growing old without you.

I would change the world,if I had a chance,won't you let me?

2007-04-24T19:51:00.000+08:00

Love's not always black and white

Don't let go on us tonight

Today was fun fun fun!:)During lit lessons I was too bored so I started drawing cuts and bruises on my hand.And it looked really real.So I went tricking everyone and almost everyone thought it was real!I was just having fun pls.Hahaha!After school stayed back with kong rui and mins.Accompanied mins to the com lab for her coursework.Stayed till about 5 plus then went home.Short entry though,not in the mood to blog long stuff=xOkay,I going over to stayover at mins house now!Yayy!:D

Replies for tags!
Esther:Hello!HAHAHA!I love it when we tell each other really lame jokes.I don't think you would want to eat ferero rocher again!Lol.
Michelle:I'm seventeen!But I don't act like one.Hahaha!Also YOUR son what!Yayy!I love niang too!:D

Bruised and battered by your words,dazed and shattered now it hurts.Haven't I always loved you?

When I'm with you,I'm close to tears,cause you're only almost here.

2007-04-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

Loving you,was what I was trying to do

I feel like crap now,but I will just type a short entry.Today after school went to study with anying,mins,monster and kong rui.Finished studying then we went to punggol end for a while.Then decided to have dinner at chomps.Monster didn't join us though.Ate carrot cake and prawn noodles!Yum!After dinner send anying home then went home.

I wish I could throw tantrums and get what I want.

I guess I could get used to it.

2007-04-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

Our secret:)

I can't explain myself at all

Saturday
Anying came over to my house in the morning to send me to school as a support for my chinese oral.Yayy:DSo nice of her.Chinese oral was alrights.After oral got home and change then send anying to her basketball training.Waited for her to finish her training at tampines mall.Done with her training then she came over.Finally ate lunch.Had creamy chicken at pasta mania.After that went back to her house downstairs cause she wanted to see a doctor.But all the clinics were closed.So went to rivervale mall to see a doctor instead.After seeing the doctor,we went to rent some horror movie.Went back to my house and watched it.Anying stayed over,fell asleep at about 2am plus.

Today,anying went back home at about 11plus.So I went back to sleep.Slept till around 5 plus.Woke up and went to meet mins for dinner:)Went to jalan kayu and had indian rojak.Yum!Xin fu de gan gue:)Walked over to 7-eleven to get something.Mins said she felt like she was in thailand.So funny pls!After that went to karin house.Slacked there for about two hours then
went home.

Anying!Thanks for coming over so early to send me to school and give me support and for spending so much time with me.It meant a lot to me:DI love you tons!:D

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(: :I am very sure of who you are!Of course I know!Cause I'm smart:D
Ruoyu:Yes!You stole my place during oral!Hahaha!I'm not crazy.
Twin:Its been a long time since I last saw you:(Meet up soon kays!We got loads to catch up:)

A thousand lights has made me colder,and I don't think I can look at this the same.

I rather not think about it.

2007-04-20T19:55:00.000+08:00

Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye,I know you will be forever in my life.

Today,almost died from doing maths.Four periods of maths.Did paper 1 and 2.Goodness,non stop of doing that paper.I was so freaking stress that I felt like tearing that piece of maths paper.Rah.Its was like fuck okay.Tsk.Screw maths!After school went out with kong rui,monster and mins.We went to punggol park.Kong rui and monster jogged,while I and mins took a stroll.After that went to hougang macs to have lunch.Yum!Then went back to mins house.Studied till I almost fell asleep.Was so tired.Monster did her chinese workbook.It was so so funny pls!She anyhow do her work.And its like she got almost everything wrong.Hahaha!Monster is so funny.Slacked a while more,then went home.

Tml prelim chinese oral.Rah.I'm so lazy to go for it.Anying is coming to fetch me tml morning to school to give me support.Yayy!:DAfter that we are going to go out and have fun:DYayy!

Replies for tags!
:) :I know who you are you idiot.Hahaha!
Geraldine:Congrats!:)

If there is one thing I believe,I will see you somewhere down the road again.

Our fate will never stop.

2007-04-19T19:03:00.000+08:00

Loves:D

Never gone,never far.In my heart,thats where you are.

Tuesday
School was superly slack pls!I had a total 9 periods free!Whoo hoo!So its like after the first period,all the rest of the periods I was totally free from lessons till school end!Hahaha!So I just slacked till school end.After school,stayed back while with monster and kong rui and mins.Then went to meet anying:)Poor thing,she had headache.So I took care of her.Cooked for her maggi mee and she said it was nice.Yayy:)Then she slept while I studied.Around 8 30,send her home.

Wednesday
School was pretty slack too.Three periods free.And school started late.Not much of lessons.After school stayed back with monster and mins.Anna came to look for me in school.I was teaching monster chinese!Studied too.Waited for kong rui to finish her nafa test,then went to compass.Slacked for a while,then went off to meet ruixin.Went for a walk in punggol park.Played with swing.After that went to anying house downstairs to chat with her.After that went home.

Today,school was quite okay.After school went to kong rui house.I studied abit,kong rui cooked dumplings for me!Yayy:)So nice!Studied a while more then went home.

Geraldine:Hello:)Take care!

The things we did,the things we said,keeps coming back to me and make me smile again.

Somehow you found a way,to see the best in me.

2007-04-16T21:19:00.000+08:00

I never wanted to say goodbye

Today wasn't a really good day.Pouts:(Never mind.

Kong rui was being nice to treat me ice cream again during recess:)My lit teacher rocks!The whole lesson she was just crapping away with us.So funny pls.After school met up with anna and ruixin to go shopping at town.Went to heeren to have lunch there.Shopped around at far east and wistma.Ruixin got herself a nice top.I got a hair cut at far east.I think my hair looks neater now.Hahaha.Then had a bit of dinner at taka mos burger.Slacked for a while then went home.I had a lot fun with them:)Okay,this is a pretty short post as I'm in no mood to blog in full details and I need to go mug now.Rah:(

I don't feel that I'm important to you,it seems like I'm always the last thing on your mind.

Maybe I'm just asking for too much.

2007-04-15T21:54:00.000+08:00

I give it all,I give for us.I give anything but I won't give up.

I'll stop breathing if I don't see you anymore.

Friday

It was last day of training for me.Ahhhh!So sad pls.Rah.Was in charge for most of the activities.I had a lot fun:)Three cheers for my patrol!They finished their shoe rack!Yayy!After training went home and got changed.Met up with Anna and ruixin to go drink.We got a bit drunk so we were talking nonsense all the time and played at the playground like little kids.Hahaha!Went home at about 11 plus.

Saturday

I was supposed to sleep till 1plus.Kong rui woke me up and asked me to go out cause her training was cancelled.So we went to meet up with mins.Then we went to ps to have breakfast.Had macs breakfast!Yayy!:)Slack at macs for a while then went shopping around ps.After that went off to meet anying:)Went to her friend house cause she had to pass her something.Then went to seragoon gardens to have our dinner at sticky rice!Yayy!She was so happy pls.Cause the food and everything else there was nice.After our dinner we went to ice cube to eat waffle.Yum!Again she was very happy to eat such nice food.Hahaha.So cute of her pls.Then we went to meet up with anna and ruixin to play pool.Had a lot of fun:)At about 10plus we all went home.Anying came over and stayed,Slept at about 3 plus.

Today,woke up at about 11plus.Anying went home to get changed.Met her at eunos Mrt station.Off to jurong point to pass her friend things.Then we went to west mall to have our lunch at pasta mania.Yayy!Anying was so nice to bring me there as I had craving for creamy chicken pasta.So happy:DAfter eating went back to pasir ris to eat bens and jerrys:)And we ate fishball soup too.Anying tried to cut up the fishballs and it almost flew out.Hahaha.So funny pls.And we saw this person giving out balloons.And we took 4!Hahaha!Send her home.Reached home at about 8.

Some photos I took this past two days:)

Last training,my patrol!:)

Although sometimes she can be an idiot ,but I still love her all the same:D

Replies for tags!

Geraldine:Hello:)

Sauyan:Sorry eh,I forgot your new link thats why I never link you=x

Michelle:I never!Hahaha!In the end you gave me that balloon what:p

When you walk away,I count the steps that you take.Do you see how much I need you right now?

I do need you very much.I don't ever want to be away from you again.

2007-04-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

You give me the sweetest feeling:)

I never wanted to say goodbye

Today is good day:)I survived lessons!I actually pay attention and did my work.During recess kong rui treated ice cream as she promised me:)Yayy:)After school accompanied kong rui to ica building to apply for her pr.While we were there,we were like so dumb pls.First she had to take photo,after taking photo she had to paste onto the form,but we didn't have glue,so I used my spo the stickers inside to help her paste.Hahaha!At the counter there she was supposed to put her form there but then she didn't know that.So I wondered why we waiting for so long and so I went to the counter and we saw the tray there where she had to put the form there.Ahhhhh!We felt so dumb okay.Wait for so long then realised.Lol.After that done with everything.We were about to go out of the building and I went to this door and I wondered why it did not opened.And both of us didn't realise that there was a closed sign there.Ahhhhh!Oh mans.We were so dumb.So funny pls.After that we went to ps,I ate my dinner at pasta mania.Sudden craving for it.Had my creamy chicken!Yayy!Whoo hoo!Xing fu de gan jue:)Kong rui didn't eat as she said she wanted to go on an diet-.-Slack there for a while then went to window shop.Then I met up with anna,kong rui went home.Anna bought the present she wanted to buy for someone.Then we window shopped.After that went to new cathay.Shopped abit,then went back to ps.And we got really drench.Rah!So cold pls.We had fun getting drench though.Hahaha!Trained back to compass.Anna ate her dinner at yoshi.Slack there for a while then went home.

Yayy!I feel so happy today:D

Tell me that you are still here,tell me you will never leave,tell me things will go back to the way it was.

Save this before its too late.

2007-04-11T19:40:00.000+08:00

And they say old lovers can be good friends.

Yesterday,went mins house to stayover.First went to meet kong rui then we went to have dinner together.Done with dinner then went back to mins house.Did abit of hw.Mins was online.So I went to disturb kong rui.And so we fight for about one hour plus?Hahaha!She keep bullying me.Rah.Mins just keep laughing at the both of us.Then around 11,sent her to the bus stop then she went home.Back to mins house,bathe,listen to music and chat with mins for a while then slept.

Today,woke up at about 7.Was so tired pls.I didn't sleep well at all last night.Rah.Wash up and all,then went to school.After school stayed back with mins,kong rui and yueying.Studied abit.Then went to settle guides stuff.After that went to punggol end with kong rui and mins.Sat there and chat.Then around 6 plus went home.

Replies!
Jasmine:We will go back to visit you all!Nothing to be sad about.
Geraldine:I am alright!Don't worry!
Michelle:I will try and remember!Pea brain better than no brain:)HAHAHA.

Chunky monkey,I know its your favourite.

I wouldn't forget anything about you.

2007-04-09T20:35:00.000+08:00

I will take my leave

School is seriously such a dread.I can't wait for june holidays pls.After school stayed back with mins to study.Then pop.After pop went to have dinner with monster(audrey) and mins:)While walking to compass,monster kept making me laughing okay.Lol.Had dinner at delifrance.Yum!After that took bus home with monster.While waiting for the bus,she actually hit my head and it was damn loud!So funny pls.Rah.She simply just love to bully me pls.Tsk tsk.And she bullied me all the way home.Rah.No wonder she is my monster.Hahaha.

Replies!
Geraldine:Thanks:)
Adel:Hello ah yi!My spelling is always quite bad one what.HAHAHA:)Loves!

Hello there.I'm lost,I need you to take me by the hand and bring me back to where I'm supposed to be.I'm looking for you,where have you been?Will you tell me where have you went to?I guess you said no.I can tell,cause you were never there when I needed you the most.

Its okay,I will get used to it.

2007-04-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

So tell me,why this feeling won't stop?

Saturday
Went out with kong rui,mins and audrey.Met them at compass mos burger for lunch.Done with lunch then headed to town.Audrey had to go home.So me,mins and kong rui went to heeren.Got my crumpler bag!YAYYYY!So happy pls.Hahaha.Then we went to do a bit of shopping.Kong rui suggested we take neoprints.So we took.Lol.I haven taken one for like don't know long.The whole process was really funny.Anyway the prints turned out well:)After that shopped around somemore.Kong rui bought this black long sleeve shirt.It looks nice on her.Then we walked to new cathy.Actually wanted to watch movie but mins didn't want so we went to eat snacks.Ate shilin and drank honey lemon.Yum!Went back to ps and walked around somemore.Then they went home.I went to meet anying.We went to eat pepper lunch for dinner.It was very nice:)Then went to new cathy.Watched a movie.It was the reaping.Quite nice.After the movie went to eslpandse and slack there.Then sent her home.

Today,went out with anying again.Met her at hougang mall as I wanted to get a haircut.Done with my haircut,went back to my house and slack.Slack for about a few hours then went to century square to watch Mr bean holiday.It was quite nice.After that went to mos burger to have a bit of dinner.Then sent her home.

This is anying.

This is cherly.

And so cherly met anying:)

After they got really close and spend time with each other.

Cherly became like this:D

And they live happily ever after:D

This is what anying gave me!YAYYY:D

Anying,before you came into my life,I was really miserable all the time.But now because of you,I could smile happily again:DThanks precious:DFor all you have done for me and for loving me so much!I love you tons!:DHappy 2th anni!:D

Iris:You very funny leh:)

For this I can't control.

2007-04-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

Okay,I'm really tired so I shall blog in details tml.But I really have to blog about this before I go to sleep.

We click,just like crumpler and crumpler,N73 and N73.HAHAHA:)

Happy 2th anniversary my precious!:DI love you a lot!:D

Though things doesn't seem to be going well for us this past two weeks,but I believe everything will be fine soon.I will try my very best to make things better and put in more effort in this relationship,no matter what,I won't let go:)I will learn how to love you more and more each day:DOh and yes,thanks for the tigger cup!I love it very much!:D

2007-04-07T00:33:00.000+08:00

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

Thursday
Didn't go to school.Mins didn't go either.Met up at compass to have breakfast.Then went to skcc to study.I was in no mood to study so wrote a letter.After slacking,we decided to go take 27,take a round about then back to compass.Lol.How lame can we get.So we happily took 27,I slept throughout the journey.Was so tired pls.Then went to starbucks to study.As usual,I didn't want to study.But I read my lit book.Felt kinda tired still,so we went to take a round about on 119.HAHAHA.Slept again on the bus then back to compass.Then went to foodcourt to eat some food.After that met up with kong rui and audrey.Went to the airport and studied.I slacked though.Lol.When we were about to go home,there was this staircase with water flowing down outside macs.So me and audrey were waiting for kong rui and mins.Then we couldn't see where they were,so I and audrey decided to stand on that staircase.I slipped and fell-.-Rah.It was so funny la pls.So went back home.Accompanied audrey to school for a while.Then mins and audrey went home.Kong rui came over to my house as she was gonna stay over at my house.Slack and watched youtube videos.Then she went to her friend house to get her stuffs.Damn heavy pls.After that precious came over and sent me dinner.Happy meal plus starbucks coffee!:DWheee!So nice of her pls.She stayed for a few hours then she went home.Kong rui couldn't sleep so she watched some movie.While I fell asleep.About 2am.when I can't sleep,and she could sleep,I started disturbing her.Hahaha!So fun disturbing her pls.Fell asleep at about 2 plus.

Friday
Woke up at about 10.I wanted to sleep more but kong rui woke me up.Went to rivervale mall to have breakfast.Had breakfast at kfc.Done with breakfast,rented a horror movie.Went back to my house and watch.The movie was kinda scary,more of disgusting la.Precious came over.Then kong rui went back home.Slacked with precious for a while then she went home.Went over to mins house.Cried to her and whine a lot!Went over to 7 eleven to get green tea,and I bought a whole tub of mint ice cream to vent my anger and stress.Shared it with mins.Whoo hoo!It
worked.Then went to mins house.Slacked while she studied.I fell asleep after a while,I slept for about one hour plus.Woke up and had dinner.Mins made for me mash potato!Yay:)I peel prawns for her.Ate rice and vegetables too.Then helped mins mother to fixed up a cupboard.Hahaha.Stayed till about 11 plus then went home.

Mins:Thanks for being there when I needed someone.I'm all cheered up cause of you:)No worries!I shall think positive.Hahaha.Yes,mugging sessions soon.
Precious!Thanks for the happy meal and starbucks coffee.Yay:D

Replies!
Iris:Hello!You found your way here!:)
Geraldine:Don't worry,I will go back and visit everyone.

You make me feel that with you by my side,there is nothing to be afraid of:)

2007-04-04T20:16:00.000+08:00

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you.

Today is a bad day.Rah.But its okay,I was pretty positive about everything.Hahaha.So not cherly=xAnyway,after school stayed for pop training.Before pop training was with mins,audrey,kong rui,my sec 3 leaders.Chat with them till it was pop training.After pop training went to compass to have dinner with kong rui,mins and audrey.Had dinner at mos burger.Audrey is so funny pls!I can't believe she has the song lemon tree!HAHAHA.Slack there till 7 plus,then went home.

Get a load of me, get a load of you.Walking down the street and I hardly know you.It's just like we were meant to be.

2007-04-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

Today,went out with kong rui after school:)Accompanied her go cut her hair.When we reach there she was like telling the auntie to cut away all my hair-.-Rah.She got her hair cut,now she really look like a boy.Hahaha.After that walked to hougang mall to have lunch at macs.Ate and chat about stuffs.Then saw adeline.Went up to hougang mall foodcourt to settle things for adeline for a while.I don't wish to go into details.Tsk.Angry die me pls.After that went to kong rui house and slack.I saw her last time photos!Hahaha!So funny pls.Chat halfway,in the end both of us fell asleep.Woke up then left her house.Walked to the bus stop with her,board different bus than her cause I was going tm to meet precious.Reached tm,met up with precious.She bought me pandan cake.Yay:DThen went to starbucks to chat.And she bought me my favourite mocha!Yay!:DChat for a while,then send her home,then I went home.

Precious!Thanks for your pandan cake and mocha!I love you:D

Its getting hard to be around you,theres so much I can't say.

2007-04-02T22:31:00.000+08:00

Slept until 5 plus for today,then went out with mins to have dinner at jalan kayu.First met at compass,then bused down to jalan kayu.Reached.Ordered indian rojak and roti prata.Everything was very nice!Yum!Ate alot and after eating we were so full pls.Then went home.Yay:)I'm so happy now.Cause its been a long time since we went to jalan kayu and have dinner:)

Here are the photos I took during camp!:)

I don't know how to be fine when I'm not.Cause I don't know how to make this feeling stop.

2007-04-02T11:25:00.000+08:00

I'm back from camp!:)

Three days of camp passed by real fast!I was so used to staying in school,when I came home yesterday I felt kinda lost.Hahaha.

Day 1
Ug people got to let off early at 1 20.Yay:)Rushed down and started preparing things.Soon it was bag check and opening of camp.Then campers had to clean their dorms.While sec4/5s went for pop training,pop training was okay,it was superly funny pls.All the jokes.And standing beside mins its just so funny.When she starts laughing,I will start laughing too,and the rest behind will follow suit.Hahaha!Pop training was over,then campers had drill.Taught quite a bit of drill.And punished them,they did ten pumpings.Tsk tsk.Then dinner time!Food was kinda nice.Up next was ghost tunnel.Told the npcc sec 1/2s ghost stories.And they got scared=xGhost tunnel was not scary at all okay.Tsk.And one of my juniors got injured badly,fractured neck.Goodness.All my secs3/4s leaders tried to relieve stress by rolling around the basketball court and played sushi belt!It was really fun!Then we had to settle of what happened to our junior who was injured badly as it was a combined activity for npcc and guides.As for what happened next,all I can say is when I saw my juniors saying sorry to the Npcc teacher,it really broke my heart:(And we cried together.Ahhhhh!After ghost tunnel it supper,dinner,debrief,lights out.As for leaders,coh plus planning and preparing of next day activity.It was a superly fun night!The rest of my leaders fell asleep at about 3am.Mins,adel and I went out to star gaze.Then went in to have supper.Kong rui gave me dumplings.So nice:)Ate macs with sauyan.I and mins,lynnette and aiting couldnt sleep.So we started playing really stupid games.And we starting rolling here and there.Did half squats and pumping.Run here and there,hopped around too.HAHAHA.I even went jogging at the basketball court!So thats what we did for the whole night,and we never slept at all!But we were still so active.Lol.I and mins went to bathe.Then it was time for camper to wake up.

Day 2
Everyone woke up,physical training first.Then breakfast.Went for their next activity.They had or the campers to wake up. to go out of school for games.Came back from school and they had field cooking.I fell asleep in the canteen while they did that,I only slept for 50mins and it felt like I slept for five years okay.Hahaha.Woke up to do campfire preparation.Due to the rain,we had to do a wet weather programme.Carried canteen benches up and down.Went to bathe before attending campfire.It was the worst campfire I ever had in my 4years of guides okay.I was really pissed by what happened,I and ruixin even started screaming at each other.I must say I admire priscilla for her courage to scold some people who weren't behaving themselves though they were our guests.TSK.After campfire it debrief,most likely the worst for the whole of guides.Three confiscated flags,I threw it on the floor one by one.It was really bad for my juniors.Went to the canteen,me and ruixin scolded our juniors really badly.Both of us even started crying.And everyone started crying too.The scolding lasted for about 20mins.Then all went on with supper and showering.Then lights out.Had coh but I didnt attend cause I was too tired and fell asleep in the canteen.Waited for kong rui as she told me she had something tell me.When I woke up and kong rui face was right in front of me.Scared me okay!Lol!Ate supper with her and chat.Then we joined adel and mins to chat.Iris also joined in.Tooks pics too.Kong rui,iris,adel and mins had to be in charge of sentry,accompanied them till sentry was over.Then I and kong rui went to the basketball court to star gaze.Chat and fell asleep there.

As for day 3,it was a really short day.Nothing nice happened.So I shall not go into details. After camp,precious came and fetch me.Yay:DFinally see her after don't know how many million years.Went to my house,I fell asleep while she did her hw.Then I woke up,we went to eat dinner at tm.Had yoshi.Then sent her home,then went home.

Camp was really fun.I love camp:DThough a lot of unhappy things happened throughout the camp,I must say I am really proud of my sec 3 leaders.They planned the camp and they made it through.Yay!Well done sec 3s!Not forgetting secs 1/2s too.Well done!You all survived camp!:)

As for today,I didn't go school as I'm too tired.Hahaha.I shall upload camp photos the next time.For now,I think I'm just going to sleep:)

Just so you know,this feeling is taking control of me.And I can't help it.

2007-03-29T22:14:00.000+08:00

I will be away for camp for three days till sunday so I will won't blog till I'm back from camp.I remember I was really excited for camp but now it doesn't seem that I feel that way now.Maybe cause I can't put something off my mind.I'm happy though that I'm going camp,it is like as if i'm going overseas,taking a holiday from the world outside,taking a break from the things I can't handle anymore.This three day ''holiday break'' would be a good time for me to sort out my thinking and just cut off contacts from the world and just do what I love to do.I just need a break,I need time and I need to decide.Cause once again,I'm at the crossroads.

Way back into love

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Ohhhhh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

This song shows excatly the way I feel right now,the way I feel when you are away.I do hope you will come back soon:(

I can't sleep through the night,without hearing your voice.I do need you that much,very much.Its my love for you that keeps me going on,its keeps me waiting for you,waiting for you to come back.

2007-03-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

I'm happy happy!I'm really happy:)

Monday
Stayed back for camp preparation.Then had passing out parade practice,it was real tiring.After that stayed for camp preparation for a while more.Was about to meet eye candy at tampines,then she appeared at my school outside.AHHHH!I was so shocked pls!Yayyy!She bought me a really nice egg tart too:)Was so happy:DWent back to my house.Slack till ten plus then send her home:)

Tuesday
Stayed back for camp preparation.I and ruixin cleaned the whole of guides room pls.Was pretty fun.Then went home.Was feeling really upset,eye candy came over and send me dinner.Yayy:)Thanks!Accompanied her to buy some stuff at hougang mall.Send her home then went home.

Today
Stayed back for camp preparation and passing out parade practice.Help the juniors do their punishment,to clear up the big amount of water on the guide room floor.Not supposed to help them,but then its like all for one,one for all!:)So nice to see us so united:)Had fun cleaning too!Then went home.

I'm so glad everything turned out fine!I really wanna thank some friends of mine that helped me pull through this difficult time.

Eye candy!Thanks for rushing over when I needed you and your dinner and egg tart,really cheered me up:)
Adel and mins!Thanks for being there for me and listen to my whinings:)
Kong rui!Googles!Thanks for your pink socks!HAHAHA.And for cheering me up and for your care and concern:)
Ruixin and qianyu!Thanks for being there for me and comforting me all the time:)

Life never felt so good before:)I should be happy and contented with the things and people around me:)Camp camp camp!Can't wait!It gonna be so fun:)

Snake congee!Yeah,I'm fine!No worries:)

When its wrong,but it feels so right:)

2007-03-27T19:15:00.000+08:00

I got into really deep trouble:(I will blog again when I have the mood to.

Priscilla!Its okay:)We will come back and visit you all:)

My girlfriend is missing,can someone tell me where she is?Cause I'm missing her and I need her very much:(

2007-03-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night,met eye candy at hougang mall to have supper.In the end everything was close and so she bought a drink only.Then walked over to punggol park.Sat there for awhile and chat.It started to rain so went to take a bus to my house.We got drenched while walking to my house,didn't want to wait for the rain to stop.It was really fun though:)Eye candy stayed over.Yay:)Made supper for her.Stayed awake till 3am plus then fell asleep.

Today,woke up about 11plus.Made breakfast for her.Ate and watched tv.Slack till about 4pm then we went to tampines mall to watch the movie Tmnt.It was nice.As usual we were the noisest in the cinema.Hahaha.After the movie had dinner at ajisen!Yum!So nice pls:)Eye candy treated me.Yay!:)After that she needed to get some food for her dad,then send her home.Sat at her house playground downstairs for a while,then she went home.

Eye candy!Thanks:)I had a lot of fun with you,you made my two days.I was very happy being with you.Yay,you rock.I love you:)

There's a thousand lights that'll make you feel brand new,but if you ever lose your way,I'll leave one on for you.

2007-03-24T20:57:00.000+08:00

Suddenly I realised that I'm gonna pass out from guides in less than a month,though I will be back after O-levels to help out with guides again.But it just ain't the same anymore.I remember when last time I found that being a leader in guides was so tough,I wanted to quit,but now,I don't want to leave:(

2007-03-24T20:09:00.000+08:00

Getting over you was long

Today,went out with ruixin to get some camp stuff.So went to clarke quay to buy it.Then we went back to the place where she used to work at,stayed there for a while.Her lady boss asked ruixin if I was her little brother!HAHAHA.So funny pls.Since when me and ruixin look alike=xWhats more she said little brother and not little sister.Oh my-.-Comments about me looking like a little kid is getting more and more.Lol.Then went to centre to look for anna.Chat with her for a while then went off.Actually we were supposed to go far east to get stuff but we were too tired and lazy.So went to kovan to get lightsticks.Bought a bit of food.Then went home.

Next week,my shedulde goes like this,
Monday-Camp preparation and passing out parade practice
Tuesday-Camp preparation
Wednesday-Camp preparation and passing out parade practice
Thursday-Maths remedial and camp preparation
Friday,saturday and sunday-Camp.

Everything starts right after school and will last till 6pm.I will be really tired and busy.Oh no:(

Michelle:Yes,you should be honoured!:)I update my blog when you told me to:)

So I might've made a few mistakes.

2007-03-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

My blog is really rotting,shall revive it as from today onwards:)

Let me back track to the march holidays,

Monday-I rotted at home.

Tuesday-Zoo trip plus dinner with Miss yeo!

Wednesday-Rot at home all day,at night,she came over to my house to look for me.

Thursday-Went swimming with min min,then after that went to play basketball with eunice and all,then she came over to my house to stay.

Friday-Guides meeting,then went to celebrate yueying birthday at grape vine.

Saturday-Went for campus superstar competion to support qianyu.At night went to seletar country club withh jasmine and twin.

As for sunday,I can't rmb what happened.Hahaha!

This week,

Monday-After school went to study with mins at skcc,then went to tm to meet her to study.

Tuesday-She came over to my house and study.

Wednesday-Studied with mins at skcc again.

Thursday-Went out with her for dinner.

As for today I shall update a proper post:)School is still the same,such a dread.But I survive it.After school went to compass with qianyu,josleen and our juniors to buy ruixin birthday cake:)Then went back to school to prepare for guides.Did last min programming.Oops=xAfter roll call was announcement.Then surprised ruixin with the cake.It was a success!Yay!:)Had Pt,made them run 4 rounds.Had camp preparation and drill.Then dismissal.Went to have dinner with mins.Kong rui only accompanied us to mos burger and she had to go home already.After dinner went home.

Some photos I took over this two weeks!

Me and jolene

Me and yueying

Eating cake session

Happy birthday yueying!

Jasmine,me and twin

Shot 1

Shot 2

Biggest balloon I ever recieved from someone:)

I'm the one that loves you lately:)

HAPPY EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY RUIXIN!LOVE YOU PLENTY!

CAMP IS COMING!YAYYYYY!WHOO HOO!CANT WAIT!:)

Next week I'm gonna be real busy.Oh no:(

Replies for tags!

Qianyu:I was so shocked when I saw my photo there,omg la.
Kwai:I never act emo la:)

No my heart just can't hide.

2007-03-14T19:15:00.000+08:00

I went back in time,I read my past posts.And looking at all the entries,I was happy for most of time.I was never lonely,I always had my friends and family by my side.But for now,everything is just not the same anymore.Sighs.

Maybe you will never know how lonely I feel at times,when I cry alone at home.You just don't understand what I'm going through now and then.Where were you when I needed you the most?

2007-03-14T09:14:00.000+08:00

Lets go back to the beginning.

Qianyu!Now I know what it is to be a really really BRIGHT light bulb.AHHHH.Lol.

2007-03-12T01:59:00.000+08:00

Saturday

guides hiking trip!I must say it was really fun!:)After hiking trip went out with qian yu and ruixin.Had lunch.And ate different flavours of ice cream.Hahaha.After that went home and slept.As for what happened for the rest of the day was really upsetting so I shall not go into details.

Sunday

I got my N73!Yay!Went to have lunch with anying in the afternoon.YAYYY!SO HAPPY PLS:DHaven met her for a long time.Ate pizza hut.And she passed me a present.YAYYY!After that she had to meet her sister.I went to hougang mall to meet ruixin.Waited for anna to come.Then went to eat pepper lunch for dinner.After that went to punggol park and slack.Talked about some things and it was really funny.Qianyu came cause I wanted her to come and save me!Hahaha!Thanks qianyu!After that walk to pasa malam to buy my phone cover.On our way there we keep laughing and all.So funny pls.Then they went home.I went to meet up with adel and mins!Went to bliss and drank mocha and ate fries.Chat about a lot things.Then cabbed home.

ANYING!Thanks for the present.I love it cause its from you!Yayy!You rock!I love you!:D

Michelle:Hahaha!:)

I need time.

2007-03-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

Today is emo day.Tsk,I'm have been in a bad mood since morning.Nothing seems right,feelings aren't there either.

Anying is back from camp:)

Michelle:Of course I love to go out with you!You are my niang leh:)

Its hard to walk away,knowing that I once loved you very much.
Girl you make it hard to be faithful.

I never wanted to say goodbye.

2007-03-09T01:11:00.001+08:00

I hate flashbacks,it keeps coming back.Go away flashbacks,go far far away,don't ever come back again and disrupt my life.

2007-03-08T20:12:00.000+08:00

If everyone loved and nobody lied.

Today went out with mins.Went to compass macs,sengkang cc and airport to slack.Then went to tampines mall and town to shop for mins new bag.In the end she bought a crumpler bag!Ahhhh!I want my crumpler bag soon too.Had a lot of fun going out with mins!It has been a long time since the both of us went out together:)Oh and,I'm taking a real long holiday from everything in life:)

Anying is coming back tml!Yayy!:DCan't wait for her to get back from camp:DI miss her:(

I never dreamed that you'd be mine,but here we are,we're here tonight.
Happy one month anniversary precious:D

2007-03-07T21:06:00.000+08:00

Second post of the day!:)

NANYANG GIRLS WON!WHEEEE!CONGRATS:)

Met up with cui and she accompanied me to go watch the finals.We reached jurong east sports complex one hour earlier.Lol.It gave us time to explore the place and we found good seats to watch the match.Watching the finals was nerve wrecking pls.At first nanyang was taking lead,then jurong sec caught up with the points.At the last quarter nanyang keep scoring but jurong kept catching up.Around two mins left,the score was 36-39.I was so jing zhang for nanyang that I shouted go nanyang!Hahaha!Until around 20secs left,jurong scored again,the score was 38-39.Omg la,damn exciting pls!They keep having time out,even when its left only 2 secs they had a time out.So jing zhang for that 2secs.But in the end nanyang still won!YAYYYY!After the match pass anying her present.Then went home.

Cui!I'm alrights.Don't worry,I'm not upset anymore,and everything turned out fine.Thanks for accompanying me today:)

Anying is away at camp now.I miss her:(

专属天使

我不会怪你　
对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而妳纤细善良
怎能让妳为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌　
厚厚的温暖
妳总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想　
透过妳的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把妳抢离我身旁
妳是我的专属天使　
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代妳在我心上
拥有一个专属天使　
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌　
大大的力量
我一定也会像妳一样飞翔
妳想去的地方　
就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把妳抢离我身旁
妳是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代妳在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是妳出现　
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为　
生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把妳抢离我身旁
妳是我的专属天使唯
我能独占
没有谁能取代妳在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

I love this song,it says of everything that I want to say to her:)

2007-03-07T09:58:00.000+08:00

School is such a dread and besides I want to go see anying basketball finals,so pon school:)

Yesterday wasn't in much of the mood to blog.Anyway,ruixin mia yesterday.First qianyu called me told me that ruixin mia.She didn't switch on her phone and she wasn't at home.We got so worried cause she asked qianyu out to sit swing and she just suddenly mia.Most likely when she ask us out to sit swing means she is upset.We got so worried that we started calling all her friends and everybody else got worried too.Even qianyu went to ponggol park to look for her.And I almost went to pasir ris park to look for her.In the end she was with jasmine.She was okay,just that her phone batt low.Phew.Ruixin!See!So many people cares about you when you only mia a few hours.Especially qianyu,she went the extra mile to go look for you besides calling.We all love you so much!:)Hahaha!

I'm happy when I'm away from school,from guides,from studies and from my family.So don't sound like me mans.For this year,I ponned school for like don't know how many times and throughout my secondary school years,I have never had such bad attendence before.I seriously dread school.I used to love guides a lot,I would attend every session without fail even when I'm sick.But now,my attendence at guides is really bad.I never even bother about the upcoming camp which is in three weeks time.For my studies,I'm not surprise when I get back my report book,I will see only two passes.My family don't even know anything and they assumed I'm living a very happy life when I'm not.All they know is how to kill me with their mean words.I just shut off from them cause I don't want to get upset over them.I realised who are my true friends,as for the rest,I don't need them.Tsk,I needa get my life back on track.Before everything is too late.

Later on gonna watch anying basketball match finals.Yayy!:)Hope she get the most valued player award and hope that nanyang will win!:)Will blog again tonight!:)

Oh and yes,I'm most happiest when I'm with anying.Beams:D

Its kinda hard to talk right now

2007-03-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to watch anying semi finals basketball match.All of them played until very violent,anying didnt played well.Its okay!Jiayou!Throughout the match I was so jing zhang pls.Lol.After her match went to eat dinner with her.We ate yoshi.We tried to trick one of the workers into spilling soup.So funny la.After that went to toysarus and played with toys.We were like little kids.Hahaha!After that went to her house and slack.Then went home.

Today is a bad day.Really bad day.All the bad things happened today,it just can't get anymore worse pls.Before I have a nervous break down.

Currently I'm at anying house now,slacking.She's going for camp tml for three days three nights.Oh mans,I don't know how I will survive pls.And its her finals for tml.Hahaha.Yay.Can't wait to watch it.

I thinking I'm suffering from depression,I am like depressed all the time.Running away from everything that is happening in my life.Studies,friends,school,family.Oh screw everything.Tsk.I just want to left alone.

Sauyan:I get what you mean.I will try to stop using my brain so much:)

2007-03-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

Saturday
Slack throughout the whole morning till 5plus.Anying came over,went to hougang mall to pass ruixin leaders booklet,then we went to adeline house for dinner:)First was bbq,the food was nice.Bird joined us halfway.Done with dinner,went into adeline room to play with cards.Played ninety ninety,and I lost three times.Rah.Had to do three dares.Hahaha.Kong rui and kwai joined us halfway.Then bird went home.Went outside and watch soccer and chat.I can't believe liverpool actually lost!Rah!Liverpool should have won pls.Lol.Was hungry again,so went to bbq some food with mins and anying.Chat and all,then went off with anying.Stayed over at anying house.

Today,woke up at around 8plus.Slacked till 11plus.Then went to washed up and eat.After that fell asleep again.Hahaha.Like pigs mans the both of us.After that anying went to my house with me.Bathe and all,then went to church to pass my friend something.After that rushed to town to meet anying mom.Shopped for anying gown!She tried on all kinds of gowns and she finally bought one,she looks VERY pretty in it pls:DAfter that went to eat dinner with her grandparents.So weird pls,it was like meet the grandparents session.Lol.Ate a lot of food.It was nice.My hand got cut by peeling prawns=xDone with dinner,then went home.
Oh and yes,anying parents are really funny people,her mom wants me to be her god daughter and her dad wanted to intro me as a girlfriend to one of anying's cousin.Oh mans.

Natasha:I will link you up!:)

Because I know what its like to lose a loved one.

I'm sorry,I really dont know how to make you understand why I'm so sensitive,why I'm so afraid of losing you.Cause I know what it is like to lose someone I really love,the more I love the person,the more I'm afraid to lose her,you know that you mean a lot to me and I love you a lot,thats why.I can't help but to think everyday,how long can we last,how many days are left for the both of us,when is the day you will leave.Sometimes when I hold your hand in mine,I start to wonder when you will let go.And I'm sorry for being so petty and mean nowadays,I guess I have been thinking too much.I'm really sorry.Honestly nowadays I have been feeling quite terrible,thinking about all this.I don't want to think about this either,but I just can't help it.I hope you understand why I have been like this for the past few days.

2007-03-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!I changed my blogskin again.Its so nice!Yay.

Yesterday,school is always such a dread.Maths was horrible.I just stoned pls.Cause I had no idea how to do the questions.After school met up with anying:)She was supposed to fetch me from school but in the end she got lost so she had to cab to my school.So funny pls.After that went to my house slack for awhile.Then we went to town.Shop for her clothes but couldnt find any so decided to go have dinner at ajisen.What happened at ajisen I shall not go into details=xHorrible experience mans.Lucky ruixin came and save us.Thanks ruixin!Sorry to trouble you.After dinner I went back to shaw house to collect my pay slip.But my pay slip haven come yet.Rah.After that send anying home then went home.

Today,ponned school.Went to watch anying basketball match:)She played very well today:)I love watching her matches.She is so pro pls.Talked to her for a while then went home.

More pics for thinking day:)

Replies for tags!

Twin:Yes,I'm enjoying my life very much now.See you soon:)

Cui:Rah,I don't want to think about what happened.So horrible.Its been so long since I last saw you.Meet up soon kays!:)

Michelle:I love to pon school mans!:)

Let this be the last

2007-02-28T16:34:00.000+08:00

Been too busy to update,whats new anyway.Lol.

Monday

Had some mission thing in school.It was fun.There were no lessons at all.Hahaha.So shuang.After school just went home and rot.At night went to the fun fair at hougang with ruixin!I finally got to ride my ferris wheel ride.When we reach there,the whole fun fair was so empty.Not much people there.We sat a total of 11 rounds of the ferris wheel.WHEEEE:)SO NICE PLS.After playing ferris wheel.Went to buy snacks at the pasa malam there.We bought ondeh ondeh,honey chicken and fried jackfruit.Yum!We went to this stall that sold all kinds of sour plums,then I sampled one of the sour plums there.I just ate the whole thing and it was pretty hard,so I ask the auntie there was it supposed be hard,and she said there was seed inside so I must have eaten the seed down too.HAHAHA.The auntie was damn shocked pls.And ruixin just kept laughing at me.After buying all the food.Went to a nearby playground to eat all the food we bought.Played with swing,so shuang:)Then went home.

Tuesday

School was the same,had the mission thing again.No lessons.Yay.After school went home and rot.Then went to meet anying to study and eat dinner.Anying just can't concentrate on studying.She was drawing all over my book.Tsk.After studying had dinner at ajisen!Ate beef ramen.So nice pls!After that went shopping for her friends present.Send her home then went home too.

Today,school was boring.Had three free periods.Hoho.Currently anying is my house now doing her hw.So guai.Lol.

Qianyu:You very weird leh,are you some kind of battery or what?LOL.Send me nice photos then I put up lor.

2007-02-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

Today went out my anying!:)Had my macs breakfast.Wheeee!I've been wanting to eat it but was too busy with school.Ate hotcakes and egg muffin and harsh brown.Yum!After that went to print anying photos.Then watched the movie norbit.Quite funny and nice la.After the movie cabbed down to pasir ris park.Had picnic there.Ate a lot of food pls.And anying was very nice to feed me:)Anying wanted to learn how to rollerblade so we went rollerblading.Hahaha.It was really fun!Teaching her and all.And there was a time I asked her whether she was gonna fall and she fell right after I asked her.Me the shifu actually fell down too.Lol.Went to fisherman village!I was so happy when I see fishes flipping here and there.Hahaha.Then went to sit at the sand and look at the sea.So nice!Then went back to tampines mall.Collected anying photos.Had dinner at mos burger.Then send her home,went home.Oh and yes,I told anying a lot of funny things.She realised a lot of things that she didn't even know it took place.Hahaha.And one of her photos,where her hair was super short.She looks really cute pls!:D

Anying made my day!She made me so happy:D

Qianyu!You don't look ugly in that photo la.Lol.

Anying rollerblading!

She looks so cute in this photo pls!:D

When love comes,it can't be stopped.Thats where you came in,I love you sweetheart:)

2007-02-24T19:59:00.000+08:00

Today went for thinking day at national indoor stadium.It was fun la.All the singing and sneaking out when it gets too boring.Lol.In the bus back to school we all were so high!And sang songs that were real funny.Hahaha.Oh and yes,I break record le.For not meeting anying today,cause we have been meeting for the past 14days and for today,anying can't get out of her house.Maybe I will be meeting her later on anyway,if she can come out.Hahaha:)

Here are some pictures I took today:)

Me and princess!

Me and qianyu!

Me and jiahui!

Me and Miss teo!My guider!

I will upload more when I get more photos from qianyu.

Anying!The fact is that you snored!LOL.I'm not mean!I'm always very nice to you:)

I will never admit that I don't love you:)

2007-02-24T01:09:00.000+08:00

My past.Tsk,go away:(

2007-02-23T20:23:00.000+08:00

Didn't update yesterday cause wasn't in the mood to blog.

Yesterday,after rotting at home till noon,went to fetch anying from her school.Took a cab cause I was just too lazy.Lol.After fetching her went to town and have lunch.Ate pepper lunch at shaw house.Wheeee:)My favourite:)After that walked around town.Saw the newurban male shirt I wanted!AHHHHH.Gonna get it soon:)After that went to pasir ris to eat bens and jerrys ice cream!4 scoops!Fat die me.Anying bought me happy meal!Yay!:)Thank you anying!:)After that send anying home.Went home too.

Today,didn't go school.Stayed at home and watch hua yang sao nian sao nu.Then went over to anying house to take care of her cause she is sick.Poor thing.Brought her to see a doctor.Goodness.Even when she is sick she is still so noisy and crazy=xI bet she will kill me after seeing this.Hahaha.After that went back to her house.Feed her congee and her medicine then she fell asleep.She sleep until so unglam!And she snores.HAHAHA.Damn funny.I spend my time watching hua yang sao nian sao nu.From 3 to 7!After that she woke up,watch hua yang sao nian sao nu too.Ate dinner.Currently I'm still at her house.Make sure she eats her medicine before I go home:)

I dont't want to drink vinegar ever again:(

2007-02-22T08:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,school was real boring.Rah.Had three free periods,english and bio lecture.For once I actually paid attention in class.And I did my bio hw during free two periods.Mircale mans.Lol.After school had guides.Did footdrill and rehersal for thinking day.Then went home.Bathe and all,cab over to anying house.Had dinner with her family.I am on a diet la?And Anying kept giving me food.And I couldn't put it back cause her parents were there.Rah!Fat die me ar.Lol.Slacked in her room all night.Stayed over:)

Today,woke up at 5.Cabbed back to my house to get ready for school.Got changed and all.Reached school,arranged everything.Then it was time for the actual thinking day thing.Goodness,I was freaking out.Its like I'm the commander and I had to stand in front of the whole school.Everything went quite well.At least I didnt't say any wrong commands.Lol.Had temperature taking exercise and I got fever.HAHAHA.Now I'm home,nothing much to do.Rah.

I realised I didn't really move on with life.Considering the fact that I always think about my past.I'm still living the life I had two years ago=xI don't like changes,can't life just be the way it is and never change?Sad to say,nothing last forever.Screw that:(Sometimes things changes so much,it really pisses me off.I'm so pissed off by the things happening around me,I feel so emo now.Tsk.

I love this chapter of my life,I don't ever want to move on.

2007-02-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

Been real busy for cny!Gonna update about everything today.

Sunday
Visiting of relatives in the morning till night!I visited a total of 6 houses!Piang eh.Was so tired after visiting.Had dinner at my aunt place.Had steamboat!Yum!After dinner went to meet anying.Went to pasir ris beach.Stayed there,drank alcohol and star gazed:)So nice!Then went over to anying house and stayed over.

Monday
Woke up,bathe and all.Wished anying's mom happy new year.Then anying came over to my house to bai nian.Slacked in my house for a few hours.After that went to meet ruixin cause needa to return her money.Then cabbed down to city hall.Wanted to get our new urban male top but the shop wasn't open.Then decided to go clarke quay to eat pepper lunch.While walking there we were so crazy that we took out our slippers and walked bare footed.So fun!Hahaha.Reached,pepper lunch wasn't open.So went over to vivo.Vivo was too crowded,so went to ps.Had dinner at cafe cartel.Then went to watch movie twins mission!Its very nice pls!So funny la the movie.I am snake soup and anying is snake congee.Lol.After that cabbed to pasir ris beach.Anying and I cried:(Rah.After that I went home.Bathed and pack things,then sneaked out of my house.Piang eh,it was so scary.Succeeded in sneaking out of my house!Hahaha!Cabbed to anying house.Stayed over again.Anying bought me happy meal!Yay!When we were about to sleep,anying and I were so high.Lol.Finally fell asleep after a while.
I promise you,if one day you were to ever leave,I will go to pasir ris beach everyday and shout I love anying till you hear me:)

Today
Send anying to meet her friends.Then went over to jasmine house.Met up with my primary school friends and my primary school teacher!Will upload pictures when I get it from jasmine.After that had lunch at sticky rice!Yum!Ate pineapple rice with seafood.After lunch met up with twin.Went back to my house cause jasmine and twin wanted to bai nian.Slacked in my house.Then went back to jasmine house.Went to meet nigel and all at the park.Played detective and murderer!Very addictive pls.Lol.Then walk around the neighbourhood.After that me and jasmine and twin left cause we wanted to eat dinner.And we ate sticky rice again!Yum!I had beef noodles,and shared a sticky rice with mango with twin.It was very nice!After dinner walked around,bought snacks.We were so high!Slacked and all,then went home.

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Sauyan:Hello princess!:)Can tahan one la.Lol.
Anying:Happy chinese new year!Thanks for your happy meal.I love you too:D
Snake congee:Yo snake congee!HAHAHA.

2007-02-17T22:16:00.001+08:00

Sweet:D

Today,went out with anying!:)Met at city hall.Gave her the green nike bottle I bought for her!:)First,had lunch at sakae sushi.Whoo hoo!Ate beef ramen.And sushi.Yum!Anying was very nice to treat me for lunch since I bought her a green nike bottle:)Then after lunch,went shopping for her sandals and her undergarment.HAHAHA.So funny pls.Shopped at marina square and suntec.She bought a green nike sports bra.LOL.And I got her a pair of sandals from charles and keith since she treated me to sakae sushi.Had A LOT of fun with her:)Done with shopping,then we went to eat sakae sushi again!LOL.And I paid for it.After that went to starbucks,had my favourite mocha!And she had some mango drink.Shared a oreo cheese cake.Yum!And she paid for it.So throughout the whole day,we were trying to pay for each other things!HAHAHA!:)Send her to her grandmother place cause she was gonna have her reunion dinner there.Her grandmother thought I was joining them for reunion dinner and her grandmother was so happy.So funny.Her whole family seems to like me.LOLAfter that went home and had my reunion dinner.During dinner,my bro told my mom to ask me what I was doing on valentine day,cause my bro saw me with my girlfriend,and he wanted to sabo me by telling my mom.So this is what me,my bro,and my mom said.

Bro:You ask cheryl(my family calls me by cheryl)where did she go for valentine day la.
Mom:Cheryl,where did you go?
Me:I went out with on a date with my girlfriend.
HAHAHA.So my mom didn't say anything,and later on while she was washing dishes,I ask her,
Me:Mom,I cannot have a girlfriend is it?
Mom:I never say cannot what.
HAHAHA!So this shows,my mom approves of me having a girlfriend.And of course I told her who my girlfriend was:D

Cui:Hey bro,I just want to say this to you,BE STRONG OKAY!At this point of time,everything may seems to be really bad,but I'm sure you will be able to pull through.Everything will be fine!I'm here for you if you ever need me:)

Can't wait for tml,all the ang baos and new year food!YAY!:)

2007-02-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

Skipped school again today,was too lazy to go.Lol.Met anying in the afternoon.Bought movie tickets,epic movie.Had dinner at pasta mania before the movie.Ate creamy chicken and she had baked pasta.Yum!Then went to watch epic.The movie is damn funny and lame.I love the superman part.HAHAHA.I and anying was laughing like there was no tomorrow.Lol.After the movie,send her to her drama lesson.Reached there early so I treated her to moos cookie ice cream!She was so happy pls.Hahaha.Then when she was about to go for her lesson,I took out a bag of famous amos cookies and gave it to her.Cause its like I bought it secretly.And she has been craving for famous amos cookies.Suprise her.She was even more happy:)She went for her lesson.I went to shop alone at marina square.Got myself a nike shirt!Yay!After that went home.

I want to go sit the ferris wheel at hougang!Anyone wants to go with me?HAHAHA:)

HAPPY 8TH MONTH PRINCESS!I LOVE YOU:D

My eye candy,my sweetheart,my love:D

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Anying:Sorry I took so long to blog yesterday!I treated you ice cream as I promised:)

2007-02-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

Didnt go home last night so didnt get to blog about valentine day.So gonna update about valentine day and today.

Valentine day,got up early though school starts at 8 30.Lol.Was too high and excited for valentine day.HAHAHA.Reached school,and started recieving presents!WHEEEE:DMins was so happy when I gave her the soft toy rose she always wanted.And I love her present!Its a self made card with our photos on it.And the words she wrote behind,I felt really touched by what she said:DMiss Yeo came back to visit!YAYYYY!I was so freaking happy pls!Missed her a lot!Chat with her during lessons and all.And when it was time for her to go,I hugged her and cried:(I will always remember what she said to me:)After that school was a dread,was so boring,had ss test and I wrote crap.Finally school was over!Rushed home to prepare anying surprise.I bluff her and told her got high fever so she had to come my house and collect present and take care of me.So she rushed over,and when she opened my room door,she was so happy:DHAHAHA.Cause I put candles on the floor and it says I love you,with green lightsticks of her name.And she just sat there,smile and smile and look at the candles.So funny!She was very surprised!YAYYYY!Lol.After the surprise,She got changed cause we were gonna go out and have dinner.she got changed into SKIRT.She rarely wear skirt pls!So pretty!:DTrained down to marina square to have dinner.Had dinner at changing appetites!I had fish and chips and anying had some baked marconi.She was being naughty pls,pour salt into my water.Lol.Done with dinner,went to esplande rooftop.Its so nice there!And there was a band playing love songs downstairs.Everything was just so nice!And we just stand there,listen to the love songs and chat:DAfter that decided to cab to pasir ris beach,but we couldnt get a cab anywhere and I was having gastic,so decided to join the long queue at the taxi stand and cab back to her house and rest.Waited for like one hour then got a cab.Cabbed back to her house,stayed over at her house.

Today,woke up,had headache,so didnt go to school.Anying was too lazy to go school.Hahaha.Slept for very long.And both of us keep having weird dreams.Lol.Slept till 11plus,I woke up first,I was tickling her till she woke up.So funny pls!Brush teeth and all.Had lunch at her house and watched tv.As usual,its very nice of anying to feed me while I watch tv:DSlack awhile more at her house,then went to hougang to meet ruixin.Accompanied her to go highlight her hair.Took about one hour plus,done with her hair,she went off.I and anying went to pasir ris beach.Bought food to the beach.Ate there,played with the sand,swings,spiderweb.There was one part where we both were talking and suddenly we tripped on something at the same time.Damn funny!Lol.Had a lot of fun,then it was getting late.So decided to go home.We took turns to piggy back each other to the bus stop.So sweet:DWhile waiting for the bus,something really scary happened pls.Rah!We were like teasing each other like something was behind our backs,then suddenly something dropped onto the roof of the bus stop,damn scary la!Its like we were scaring each other then it happened.So we screamed and ran to the opposite one.Quite funny la.Hahaha.Bus came,went back to pasir ris interchange.Send her home.The bus trip was quite a sad one due both of us thinking about sad things.But I cheer her up!Reached her house downstairs,so funny,her neighbour was like with the girlfriend so we secretly look at them!HAHAHA.And suddenly her neighbour turned and looked at us,so we both faster run away.Lol.Send anying to her doorstep,then went home.

Photos that we took!

Valentine day was awesome:DPlus the day after!To all those who gave me presents,thanks!:D

Mins:I really love your self made card,and the message you wrote for me.We have been through thick and thin and we made it through.This friendship of ours I will treasure.I will always be there for you!I love you niang!:D

Anying:Hey sweetheart!I just want to say thanks for all the time you spent with me,I enjoyed myself a lot.And thanks for your presents.I LOVE IT:DEspecially the towel!Very sweet of you can!:DAll the time we spent together,it was really sweet:DI love you!:D

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Yying:Yes,we will go chomps!:D

2007-02-13T17:52:00.002+08:00

Princess rocks too:)

To think I would be still suffering,after all of this time.

Its been very long since I update,been too busy!

10thfeb
Went shopping for my cny clothes with ruixin:)Went to town and shopped.Went to heeren,taka,wisma and far east.Anna and anying came and join us halfway.Done with buying my clothes,went to see some basketball tournament.Met some of my friends there.And they tricked me into drinking a big mouth of pure vodka.Piang eh!Left taka,went to ps to have dinner.Ate pizza hut!Anying and anna were fighting all the time la?Goodness.Pouring cheese bits and chili bits into each drinks and pizza-.-Done with dinner then went to play pool.It was so fun!Anying was so high throughout the whole thing.LOL.After playing pool went home.Anying came over my house and stayed.

11thfeb
Woke up at 7plus.I and anying crap and crap while lying on the bed till 10plus.Then send her home.In the end I slacked at her house.We ate one whole tray of pizza that her maid made.HAHAHA.So pig la the both of us.Around 4plus left her house and went to meet cui at town.Shopped for her cny clothes.Had dinner at pepper lunch!Had my hamburger steak again.So happy to see my work mates:)Shopped awhile more,ate ice cream!Mint ice cream!It was nice.After that went home.

12thfeb
School was dreadful,was freaking tired.After recess had 4 free periods.HAHAHA.Slept throughout.After school went shopping ruixin for her cyn clothes.At bugis street.Got valentine day presents!Yay!Shopped till 7 plus.Went over to anying house to visit her cause her eyes were infected.Slacked in her house till 10plus,then my parents came and fetch me home.

13thfeb
Went home early from school cause wasn't feeling too well.Tsk.Went to get my hair cut.YAY!Like finally.Anying came over and visit me,she bought me bens and jerry ice cream!YAY!:)Now currently anying is at my house studying:)Gonna eat dinner out soon!:)

ANYING'S MOM THINKS THAT I AM CUTE!:DHAHAHA.I can't wait for tml!Whoo hoo!:DGonna spend valentine day with someone special:D

I don't think I can look at this the same anymore.

2007-02-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

When it all falls apart.

Was too tired to blog yesterday,shall update today.

Yesterday,didn't go school cause I was just too lazy and tired.And my leg was in pain.Went to see doctor.After seeing the doctor,went home to finish up my lit essay.Then went to meet ruixin for lunch.She was late for 40mins-_-Ruixin didn't eat cause she wasn't hungry.I ate pumpkin cake and later on I ate hamburger steak at pepper lunch.Yum!After lunch,ruixin went to meet her friend.I went to anying house:)Supposed to study at her house but I ended up sleeping.After I woke up,anying went to sleep.So we took turns to disturb each other.HAHAHA.Piang eh,that anying damn pig la?Eat le then sleep,wake up go eat again and then went to sleep again.Pig mans.LOL.Went to watch tv at 6 plus.Watch some cartoon movie,then watch the 7pm chinese show.Anying peeled grapes and feed me while I watch tv.So shuang!HAHAHA:)Oh and something very funny happened:)After watching tv.Ate dinner.Then went back to her room and slack.Slack till 10 plus my parents came and fetch me home.

Today,lessons were boring,had bio and maths test.For sure flunk.Rah!Guides after school.Then went home.

Replies for tags!
Cui:Why cannot!Must try kays!Can make it one.
yying:Yes yes,its our photo up there.HAHAHA:)
Anying:No lor!I where got get trick by you.Anyhow say.LOL.I think you are the one who got tricked by me!HAHAHA:)

I asked her,will you be my girlfriend?And she said yes:D

I don't know how to be fine when I'm not.

2007-02-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

I love princess drawings,and I love her too:D

I will leave this life behind me.

Been very busy!No time to update,so gonna update today.

Yesterday,school was boring.Rah.After school went to meet cui and anying!At first went to yio chu kang and fetch anying.Then went to rivervale mall to have lunch.Anying squeezed chili sauce into my pepsi.Tsk.She is just so nice to me.LOL.Cui went to work after lunch,anying came to my house to study.She took one hour plus to finish her maths cause I was disturbing her all the time.HAHAHA.And plus she was just being a pig la,slept for one hour.I feed her stingray,with chili!She so shuang,sit there and watch tv while I feed her.Lol.Done with her hw,then send her home.Then cabbed home cause I was not feeling well:(felt better after resting.

Today,school was super slack.School starts at 8 30 today,first period free because it was Pe and i don't take Pe.Next period was english and english teacher never come so another free two periods!Wife(Jijing) and girlfriend(Norani) was so funny,they were fighting over me!HAHAHA.And wife doesn't want me to have a mistress(Anying)HAHAHA!So both of them happily chat and discuss how I should spend time with them.Mon,wed,fri I go with my girlfriend,tue,thur,sat I go with my wife,then sunday we three go out together.LOL.So funny pls.Next recess!YAY!So lessons started at 11 15Whoo hoo!So shuang!Three periods of bio passes real fast.Bio practial and some lecture then over le.Then two periods of history,had history test.I wrote crap la,for sure flunk.Tsk.Then school was over!Went home,got changed,went to see anying basketball match!She played very well today:)I love seeing her compete in matches,she is like so pro!HAHAHA.Didn't get a chance to talk to her cause she very busy all the time:(Then after the match went off to meet Anna.Went shopping with her at Ps and far east.She bought clothes.Then went back to shaw house pepper lunch to visit everyone!I missed my work mates!Chat with them for a while,drank corn soup.Then went off,went home.

Replies for tags!

Cui:I pass the present to her le!Remember our promise okay!

Anying:Its okay:DDon't have to say sorry!I love seeing you compete in matches:D

My favourite basketball player,player number 8:D

You are very important to me.

2007-02-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

You should know.

School was really dread.Whats new?Tsk.Mom came and fetch me at 12!Hoho.Went home bathe and all,dad fetch me to town to get my VERY FIRST PAY CHECK!Got it already!SO HAPPY CAN?MY FIRST PAY CHECK!WHOO HOO!Okay,after getting my pay check,trained down to clementi to see anying basketball match.Went there to give her my support:)I must say she IS VERY GOOD IN BASKETBALL.She scored 10 points for her team.There was one time she just chiong all the way from one end to the other end and did a lay up.Wah piang,damn pro la she.And she shoot in a three pointer too!So exciting to see her play.HAHAHA.After her match ended,waited for her.Then went to eat dinner with her.Went to tampines.Had dinner at yoshi!Ate beef and salmon bowl.YUM!Send her home.Both of us were so high in the bus.Lol.Slack a while downstairs her house.Then she went home.I walked halfway to my bus stop,and I realised that she never gave me her lit book-_-So went back and took it from her.She accompanied me to my bus stop and waited with me for my bus,awww,so sweet:)On the bus chat with her on the phone:)Read the notes she wrote for me in her lit book.AWWWW.She is just so sweet:DAnying!Thanks for your lit book!And the notes:DI will be very motivated to study because of your notes.HAHAHA.

Because I lost someone I loved very much,the more I will treasure all the times we have together,the more I will treat you better,the more I will never let you go.
Its gonna take a lot of courage for me do this,to love you:)

We did had our fair share of happy times,I have memories that can last for a lifetime.I will let go.

2007-02-04T23:08:00.000+08:00

I'm in a thinking plus stoning mood.Well,not only today,I have been like this for the past few days.Shruggs.

Lets just say I'm not ready for certain things,and everything is happening way too fast.Moving on so fast is sure driving me crazy.Cause obviously I still can't get over some stuff.And I can't deny the fact that I need a lot of time to get over some stuff.

What am I so upset about?Just because I lost someone I love very much but yet another better one comes along?Shouldn't I be happy that I'm with someone else better?

Would you fight for the one you love?Would you wait?Or would you just move on without her?
Would you give up on her because you love her so much?

I don't know,I really don't know.

2007-02-04T19:32:00.001+08:00

I'm doubting my own feelings for you.

Was too tired and busy to update yesterday!So gonna update for yesterday and today.

Yesterday,woke up around 11 plus due to anying morning call!Hoho.Was still very tired.Tsk.Bathe and all,went to meet ruixin,qianyu and anying!Kendra could not make it.RUIXIN IS BACK!YAYYYYY!Was so happy when I saw her!She bought me a addias jacket:DIts GREEN!I love it so much pls:)Thank you ruixin!:DAfter meeting up went to walk around hougang mall,then went to kbox.Saw wife and ah yi outside kbox,chat for a while then they went off.So in kbox,I was stoning and sleeping for most of the time.LOL.Didn't sing much.I must say anying was a very good pillow to sleep on:)And qianyu screamed into the mike just to wake me up but it didn't work.After like 5 hours of singing and sleeping and slacking,anna then came and join us when we were about to go out of kbox.After kbox send qianyu home as she needed to be home early.Journey to qianyu house was so funny.HAHAHA:)Qianyu went home while ruixin went home to put her stuff then join us again.Bused down to seragoon gardens to have dinner!:)Had pow sing chicken rice for dinner.It was delicious!Ordered half of a chicken and fried you tiaos.Anna had to eat all the chicken with bones.Cause I don't dare to eat chicken meat with bones.LOL.Finished dinner!Was so full pls.After dinner went to a playground with swings!YAY!I and ruixin did what we had to do when she comes back:)Played with swing,slacked at the playground.Anying was like a monkey climbling here and there.LOL.Slacked till Anna and I got hungry AGAIN.HAHAHA.So went to chomps to eat.We all shared satays and sugar cane juice.Anying bought desert and it tasted awful so she went to buy another one.Hahaha.Done with supper.Then went to the bus stop to go home.Saw qiaolin with her two other friends.It was so funny,we were trying to find out about each other so called secrets.HAHAHA.Qiaolin cabbed home with her friends.The last bus did not come.So we cabbed home too.Poor Anying!She was so tired that she fell asleep in the taxi!Ruixin and Anna went home.Anying came over to my house.Actually she was waiting for her mother to call her and ask her to go home.In the end when her mother called she said she was too lazy to go home so she stay over at my house:DWent to bathe and all while she and my princess chat on msn.I think they must have said a lot of bad things about me.HAHAHA.They are like so good friends already,if I bully any of them I will get it from the other one.LOL.After I bathe,watched wishing stairs.Watch finish disc one,anying was too sleepy to continue watching disc two.So went to sleep.I was disturbing her while she triedd to sleep!HAHAHA.It was superly fun disturbing her!She was really tired but still I didn't let her sleep cause I was too high.LOL.After half and hour of disturbing her,I finally let her go sleep.Then I fell asleep too.

Today,Anying woke up at 6plus and she was so cold.She didn't want to wake me up and tell me she was very cold so I she took some time to figure out how to go to her bag and get her jacket as she was sleeping on the inside and she didnt want to wake me up.In the end I woke up.LOL.And I gave her blanket.Both of us fell asleep again.Woke up around nine plus.I was sleepy and she was very awake.So funny pls.Both of us went to washed up and all,let her used a tiny and very cute tigger toothbrush!HAHAHA.After washing up,watched wishing stairs disc two.Finished,slacked and chat.I told her a superly funny incident and she couldn't stop laughing.HAHAHA.Then her dad came to fetch her to go home.After anying went home,I went to my grandmother house for while.After that went to eat nasi lemak.Yum.Was very tired pls.Came home and sleep until 6 plus then Anying called and told me to wake up to do hw.She was so noisy.Shouting on the phone to wake me up.LOL.So woke up,bathe and did my hw.Currently talking to anying and gonna finish the rest of my hw.Rah.So lazy to do it la.Tsk.Gonna watch soccer match of singapore and thailand too.I must say I had a great time with ruixin,anna,anying and qianyu:DThanx guys!I had a lot of fun with you all!Outing again soon:D

Holding hands and spending time with you.Now I know how it feels like to wake up and see someone who you love very much sleeping beside you.I can't say how happy I am to have you in my life:D

Replies for tags!
Twin:Yes!Dinner again soon!And we will eat chocolates after dinner!HAHAHA.Plus photo taking session:)
Natasha:HAPPY THIRD MONTH SMILEY FACE!I LOVE YOU! ALOT ALOT:D
Anying:Yes yes,I will do my hw:)You also must do okay!Good luck for your match tml!

Just so you know,this feeling's taking control of me.And I can't help it,I won't sit around,I can't let her win now.Thought you should know,I've tried my best to let go of you,but I don't want to. I just gotta say it all before I go.

2007-02-03T05:15:00.002+08:00

Done with my new blogskin!With the help of my princess.Thanks!I love you:)

I don't want to sleep.I just feel like stoning.

I don't know how to be fine when I'm not,cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop.

I guess I wasn't good enough for you.I should be feeling upset now,but I feel numb instead,maybe you have been gone for too long,and I'm getting used to it.Like as if you care.

2007-02-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't love you,but I want you I just can't turn away.I shouldn't see you,but I can't move I can't look away.

Yesterday,as usual,school was superly boring.Tsk.After school went for the private school talk.I might be quitting school in march.Then go for private school.Sighs.I don't know:(After talk went for guides.Camp is coming up in june!And I'm the facilitor this year again.Yay!:)Taught the sec two footdrill.After guides went to meet jasmine and twin!So long never meet them le!So happy la:DFirst met up at her house.Then went to chomps and had dinner there!Ate carrot cake and drank sugar cane juice.So nice pls.Chat and chat while eating.After dinner went to fairprice to get chocolate!We bought one big block to share.Then went some place,some staircase,it was really nice there!It had a nice view and we just sat there and chat.After that jasmine parents came and fetch us back to her house.Open up our big block of chocolate!The chocolate was very nice!Watched tv,started taking a lot of pics!So fun pls!Then my parents came and fetch me,went to chomps and eat again cause my parents wanted to eat.Then went home.

Pictures that we took!:D

I love jasmine and twin alot alot:D

Jijing!Happy birthday wife!Love you:)

RUIXIN IS BACK!:DYAY!SO HAPPY PLS:DTml meeting her,qianyu,anying,anna and kendra.Kbox plus drinking!Can't wait:D

Replies for tags!
Natasha:Hello smiley face!Why frown?Smile pls!:D
Anying:Okay la,the games not very nice to play also.

It's getting hard to be around you,there's so much I can't say.Do you want me to hide the feelings,and look the other way.

2007-02-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

Sweet moments.

Been really busy,no time to update,so gonna update everything today.

30th jan
After meeting cui,we went to the airport.Had burger king for lunch.Slacked there.While I was on the phone with anying,I went to walk around the airport.When I came back,mins and cui were gone.And they happily played hide and seek with me.Finally found them at terminal 2.Tsk.Walked around.And I saw a 750grams of toblerone!Omg,its bigger then the one mins bought for me last christmas.I want it!But I haven finish the one mins bought for me,plus the one anying bought for me,so I'm not gonna ask anyone to buy it for me.Hoho.Decided to go surprise princess with a cake cause it was her birthday.Bused down to chomps first.I fell asleep.And I didn't realise I leaned on mins shoulder.Lol.Thanks mins!For lending me your shoulder:)Okay,so reached chomps.Had our dinner first.Done with our dinner,then went to princess house to surprise her.It was so exciting pls.She was in the living room.Then I and mins pretend to wish her Happy birthday only while cui hide somewhere with the cake,then she just came out and we sang birthday song right outside her doorstep.HAHAHA.So fun!Went to slack in her house.So we were in her room.Then cui took a pic of mins,and mins wanted her to delete it,but she didn't want.So the both of them started fighting over the phone.So I helped cui.And I got into the fight too.Including princess.It was so funny,we were rolling on the floor and snatching the phone.Mins bite my hand just to make me let go.Piang eh!Painful mans.Lol.Finally it ended after we agreed to delete the picture.Lol.Slacked a while more,then went home.

31th jan
Nothing much happen.Went to school,as usual,it was boring and it was a dread.After school had a chat with norani.Hoho.She gives real good solutions.Thanks girlfriend!You are such a sweetheart:)After that kendra came over to my house to bake cookies.HAHAHA.It was so fun pls.I kept eating the chocolate chips when it was supposed to be used for the cookies.Lol.First attempt failed,but the second and third attempt and every attempt succeeded!Done with baking cookies,kendra went home.Fell asleep,watched tv.Was feeling upset cause SOMEONE MIA-ED:(

1st feb
Didn't go school again.LOL.Slacked the whole morning.Watched vcds and all.Then got ready for my appointment at the hospital.Went there,checkup and all.And the doctor put in the scope thing again.She only put it in for a while,it was real fast,but still it was painful.Rah.Done with the checkup,anying came over and meet me:)Waited for my medicine,then went to tampines.Ate ajisen!It was nice!I had beef ramen and tako yaki.Chat and laughed a lot.Then went over to pasir ris and had our bens and jerry again!I had my chunky monkey AGAIN.And she had some apple ice cream.Anying was talking to qianyu on the phone,I felt bored so I decided to take out the black colour sticker and paste it on her skirt.She looked like a cow cause her skirt was white.And she didn't realise it until I told her.HAHAHA.So funny pls.After eating ice cream,send anying home.Then went home.

RUIXIN IS COMING BACK TML!YAY!WHOO HOO!CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HER MANS:D

Replies for tags!
Cui:EH!SO INTERESTING!HAHAHA!
Sauyan:You are very welcome princess,sorry I haven got you a birthday present.But I hope you did have a really sweet sixteen cause I went over to your house to wish you!I love you:D
Ruixin:You are coming back tml!YAY!
Anying:Yes,512MB is so much better!I had so much fun with you today!:D

Don't ever MIA again:(

2007-01-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN PRINCESS!I LOVE YOU ALOT ALOT:D

2007-01-30T13:41:00.000+08:00

Empty promises.

Ponned school for today,super lazy to attend school,besides,its such a dread.Met mins for breakfast.She ponned school too.HAHAHA.We had long johns!Chat and chat,done with breakfast,went back to mins house.Currently mins is sleeping!Hoho.I am falling asleep soon too.Yawns.Meeting cui later.Shall blog again tonight.

You said you would never leave.

2007-01-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

Ruixin is coming back soon.Four more days:D
Yes ruixin,I and qianyu will go ice skating with you.Can't wait to see you,got so much to tell you pls:D

2007-01-29T22:07:00.000+08:00

Long ago,a person loved you for so long.

No mood to blog,so shall cut everything short.
-School was alrights.Chinese lessons were real funny.
-After school met cui for lunch.
-Went to tampines to find princess!
-Then went to anying house to pass her sweets.Chat for a while then went home.

Anying:I never kope your fish you idiot!I hope you wont pass your physics test!HAHAHA:)Thanx for your 512MB card!:)

The most beautiful love,is in the memories of you and me.Goodbye,you have been the one.

I hope you will read this.I know this means nothing to you,but I have to say it.I never wanted to say goodbye,and this was not the way I wanted things to turn out.I know you won't turn back,I know you left long ago.Its just that I've been standing at the same spot waiting for you to come back.But you never did.I can't go on waiting for you for forever.So I'm moving on.But do remember this,you will always stand a place in my heart.No matter what happens,I love you and always will.Its a fact I can't deny,I won't lie to myself.If you ever need me one day,I will be there.I promise:)

2007-01-28T22:04:00.000+08:00

Princess drawings never fails to me cheer me up!:D

I can't get enough of you:)

Been really tired and busy this two days,didn't get to update,gonna update today.

27th jan
It was my last day of work!Was so busy till around four plus,then suddenly my manager talked to me about quitting my job.He almost made me cry!He was like asking me not to quit and work on saturdays and sundays.But I kept rejecting him,and he said whenever I wanna come back and work,there is always a space for me.Sob!:(He is so nice.I can't stand it:(Slack cause there was not much to do.And my work mates started bullying me!Tsk.Some said I got the sweet look!HAHAHA.Some said I look more like Pri 5 than sec 5.Some ask about my height.Rah!I know I'm short.They just kept teasing me.Say I taking PSLE next year thats why must quit my job.LOL.Finally work was over,said my goodbyes,cried a bit,never mind!I can always go back and visit!My very first job!All the memories I had there,I won't forget.Working there was great,though it was a pretty tiring job,the people there were nice!Sighs.Okay,so after work met up with Anying!:)She was holding a balloon.So funny.Trained down to Ps and met up with Anna.Went to doby exchange and ate peppper lunch!Had hamburger steak.My favourite!Yum!While anying did her chinese zhou wen,she is always so hardworking.Slack there for a while.Then went to arcade to play photo game!We broke our record,got to the 19th stage!Yay!Played four rounds,then anying went home.I and Anna went back to compass.Went to shop around for things!Bought a candy machine for Anying!And its GREEN.Her favourite.Then went to a nearby void deck to drink.A bottle of wine.Talked about a lot of things while drinking.Anna got drunk first,her face was so red!And she vomited:(Goodness.Finished the wine by myself,then went home.I got drunk too anyway.HAHAHA:)

Today,hangover in the morning.RAH.So irritating.Was so tired.Got up in the afternoon and ate milk noodles!HAHAHA.Then went to meet Anying at tampines to pass her the candy machine I bought for her.Bought movie tickets ghost tunnel.Went to eat yoshi before the movie started.Had salmon and chicken.Yum!I was eating real slow mans!Cause I was too lazy to eat.Sat there while Anying did her hw AGAIN.How hardworking can she get mans.Used marker to draw her face!HAHAHA.Drew pictures on tissues and papers.So fun!She gave me a straw heart and a star.YAY!:)Then went to watch the movie.The movie is like so not very horror?Okay la,not very boring either.As usual,I and anying were the noisest in the cinema!HAHAHA.We were like talking throughout,scaring each other,laughing when the scary parts came and she threw my slipper!Tsk.Lol.Had so much fun:DAfter that went to pasir ris to eat Bens and jerry again!YAY!Had my chunky monkey again.Lol.Anying had some fish ice cream.And the chocolate in the ice cream is a fish shape!Took photos,laugh and laugh.Crap a lot.And I threw her slippers as revenge.HAHAHA.I got a video that shows how unglam anying can get.Anyone wants to see?HAHAHA!I bet she is gonna kill me if I show it to anyone.Went home after that.Anying fell asleep.What a pig,but can tell she was really tired.So poor thing.Send her home.Then went home.

The chocolate that was a fish shape!

Me and anying:D

Anying:I'm glad you like the candy machine!Do play well for your next match kays!My handwriting has always been very neat de lor.I have always been very nice to you.Not only these past few days okay.HAHAHA.And you should be honoured,I NEVER watch movies so many times before with any of my friends de:DI had loads of fun with you!Been really happy these few days!Anying rocks,I love Anying:D

Replies for tags!
Natasha:I missed you too!See you soon!Take care:)
Anying:You CAT.Stop meowing.LOL.

Watch the night turn into day,dance on the milky way.I'm looking up for my star girl,guess I'm stuck in this mad, mad world.Things that I wanna say,but you're a million miles away.

2007-01-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

Chunky monkey!

Tell me,have you ever loved me before?

Was really tired yesterday so didn't update.Gonna update for yesterday and today.

25th jan
School is really such a dread.Rah.Time pass superly slow pls.Lessons were really boring.After school needed to go for hospital appointment.So went to simei.Had lunch by myself at Kfc cause anying have not reached yet.By the time I eat finish,Anying reached already.She didn't know I was at the Mrt station waiting for her.Followed her secretly to see whether she would lose her way,but in the end she didn't.What a mircale.HAHAHA.So went up to her and she got a shocked,cause she didn't know that I was behind her all along.Lol.Walked to the hospital.Waited for the doctor.While waiting,both of us were the noisest in the clinic pls.Chat and laugh like crazy.Then it was my turn to go see the doctor.The whole process was horrible!First the doctor used some metal thing to poke in my throat.So uncomfortable!I felt like vomiting all the time.Then had to put the scope thing again!Goodness,this time he sprayed double sides of my nose.So numb!And when he put the scope in,painful plus super uncomfortable.The whole thing lasted about 5mins.Rah.The whole time I was holding anying's hand until super tight.So nice of her to lend me her hand:DFinally took the scope thing out.Cried a bit.Rah.Then went out to pay and make the next appointment.I refuse to take the medicine and anying kept insisting I must take.In the end I also never take.Lol.Went to simei foodcourt to eat dinner.Done with dinner,went to white sands to eat Ben's and Jerry!I had chunky monkey and she had chocolate dough.I finally treated anying ice cream as I promised!While eating,we were playing with the stickers that were stick onto the chair.Took out some and paste it on anying uniform.She looked like a cow!HAHAHA.Cause her uniform was white.Done with ice cream.Send her home.Throughout the whole bus trip,she kept bullying me!Rah,and she knocked my head against the plastic part of the the bus.So painful pls.Plus when my head got knock,it was super loud.Lol.I did bully her too,so fun!HAHAHA.Kept disturbing her when she wanted to sleep.Took her name tag secretly.HAHAHA.Reached,Anying accompanied me till my bus came.My bus came,she went home.Then when I was about to reach hougang interchange,I realise I never take my book from her,and she realised that I took her name tag.She wanted her name tag back so badly,so I took the bus again back to her house.I overshot two stops and had to take the bus back again.Lol.Reached,return her name tag and got my book.Then went home.

Today was a very bad day.RAH!Was in a bad mood throughout the day.School was really a dread!RAH!Afternoon went to see anying basketball match!By the time I reach there I was super late.Talk to her for a few seconds,then went home.HAHAHA.I think I'm so silly,went all the way to clementi just to see her match which I saw for like a few mintues only?And talked to her for a few seconds then went home?Plus the trip there and back home takes one hour plus?How silly can I get!HAHAHA:)

Anying:Thanx for accompanying me to the hospital for my appointment.And lending me your hand:DYou were there for me when I needed you the most,it means a lot to me:DI had a lot of fun with you!You never fail to make me laugh like crazy each time I see you.Bullying you was so fun!Especially the part where before I board the bus to go home,you were like so shy!:DI still win!HAHAHA:DCheer up pls!Though you didn't play well for today match,you still got other matches coming up!Just train harder kays?You can do it!I will be there to support you all the time.I promise:D

Replies for tags!
Mins:Sorry!The other day something cropped up thats why I stayed in school.Next time go with you study kays!Sorry:(
Sauyan:Hello princess,I rock more.HAHAHA:)
Xin*:Yes,counting down for you!I will study hard!You are coming back!So happy!:)
Anying:EEEEEEEE,why you copy me!HAHAHA:)

7 more days!:D

Because this memories are so painful,I choose not to think back what we once had.

2007-01-24T20:45:00.000+08:00

I'm here without you baby,but your still on my lonely mind.I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.I'm here without you baby,but your still with me in my dreams.And tonight it’s only you and me.

I'm really lazy to blog everything in details,so I shall cut everything short!
-Met mins and nadiah in the morning at compass to have breakfast then walk to school!
-Lessons were real boring!My brain just shut down and I could not understand anything.Rah.
-After school stayed back with kendra,ate lunch with her,played basketball and slack.
-I keep quarreling with brenda khoo gui ping over some matters.HAHAHA.
-Jingxuan and kendra thinks its very funny to see us quarrel.
-I must say it was a very funny and exciting afternoon with kendra,gui ping and jingxuan.
-For the rest of the afternoon about what happen,I shall not say anything cause I don't feel like saying it.HAHAHA.
-Called anying while I was walking home!:)
-Reached home,now currently talking to a PIG.Namely the person called ANYING.HAHAHA:)

Tml going for hospital checkup!I hope that ANYING who is accompanying me won't lose her way,99.9% comfirm she will get lost,0.01% she will find her way.I bet she will kill me tml when she sees me.LOL.I can't wait to see her tml!Cause I will get to bully her again!YAY!HAHAHA:D

Princess promised me that we would go study together one day!YAY!WHEEE:DI love her LOADS!

9 more days!:D

Everything I know and anywhere I go,it gets hard but it won’t take away my love. And when the last one falls,when it’s all said and done.It gets hard but it won’t take away my love.

2007-01-23T20:21:00.000+08:00

I keep dreaming you will be with me if you never go.

Today,school was a dread.Tsk.Went home early cause I needa go see a doctor.Two days ago I might have swallowed a chicken bone.Tsk.And today I felt really uncomfortable.So went to see a doctor.When I got there,the doctor told me to go changi hospital!Omg,I cried la.Was so scared.Cui came down to pei me for awhile.She lives in jurong pls.So nice of her!Then went to compass.Waited for mins to come and pei me go changi hospital.Very nice of her too:)On our way to the hospital,chat and chat.Reached tampines and the mrt service was not working.So cabbed down.Reached,went to the A&E department where the doctor refer me to.Sat down there and waited for the doctor.While waiting,I and mins laughed at someone=x so mean of us!But it was really very funny.Finally see the doctor.And the doctor had to put some scope thing down my nose.Cried again.Cause I was superly scared:(He sprayed some thing that makes my nose numb.Then he put the scope thing down.Mins keep making me laugh!Cause I have to keep saying EEEEEEEEE so the doctor can see whether got bone inside.There was no bone inside.It was not that painful,but the process was uncomfortable.Rah.Then went to take X ray.X ray was real fast.Came out and waited for the doctor again.Then he saw my X ray,nothing inside my throat.But there is a possibility that the bone might be buried somewhere.In the mean time,I should be fine.Gotta go back for checkup on thur.Tsk.Rah.Done with everything,went to simei,had a bit of snack.On our way home,talked about a lot of things!As usual,the past,our favourite topic!Then reached home.I got my new laptop!YAY!Its freaking nice!I love it:)

Mins:Thanks for accompanying me to the hospital and being there when I needed you.I love you LOADS:D
Cui:Thanks for coming down from jurong to accompany me!I love you!:D

What if one day my feelings for you starts to fade?
What if one day I don't want to wait for you anymore?
What if one day I start moving on?
What if one day I stop loving you?

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待續

I don't know why I am so demanding sometimes,I hate it.
Why is it the more important the person is,the more demanding I am?And why does it hurts most when it comes to an important person?

Sauyan:Princess!I never forget you okay!You are always on my mind EVERYDAY:DI love you!:D

Anying:Thanks for accompanying me through msging and calling on the phone.You made me feel better!:D

I'm sorry that I'm not gonna wait for you,its not that I don't want to wait,its very difficult for me to explain,but I hope you understand.If you really want to know why,than let me know.I know that I told you a reason today,but I still have other reasons.Maybe someday I will be ready to wait for you,but not now.But still you must remember your promise okay!:)

10 more days:D

I wanted you to say,cause I needed to hear you say,that you loved me all along.

2007-01-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

When darkness turns to light.

today work was super fun.But I'm in no mood to go into details.Sat will be my last day of work.For now gonna sleep real soon.Sighs.I feel even more fan now.Rah:(

Cui:I'm glad you know what you really want.Don't lie to yourself anymore,no matter what problems you face,I will be there to face it with you.I promise you everything will turn out to be fine:)What are brothers for!I will always be there for you:)

Qianyu:Yes,you never fail to cheer me up no matter what happens:)Not really back on track,but soon kays?:)11 more days!:D

Anying:I will take care of my hand.And I am okay!I'm not sad after reading your msg:)I understand:)

It ends tonight.

2007-01-22T14:44:00.000+08:00

I can't explain myself at all.

School was alrights.During chem class,did experiments.My hand got burned,cause my mind was thinking of something else.And I didn't realise that I was holding a heated test tube.It took me like a few seconds to realise that I was holding a heated test tube?How slow can I get pls.Tsk.Now my hand is all bandage up.Could not write anything much throughout the day.Finally school ended.Work later.Sian.Rah.

A lot of thoughts on my mind.I don't think I know what I'm doing with my life.I find myself at the crossroads again.This time,I have no idea which way to go.

Is this the way we are suppose to be?I need to know how you feel.Or maybe you never even think of me at all.

Anying:I thank you already!Can you see the post below?:)

A weight is lifted,on this evening.I give the final blow.

2007-01-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

The wallet anying bought for me:D

A falling star,least I fall alone.

Slept for a while in the afternoon,got woken up by anying msg.Got up,bath and ate dinner then went to meet anying at novena.When I got there,I got a shock.She bought me a billabong wallet!I thought she was kidding with me all along when she said she wanted to get me a wallet.It was unexpected pls.Then send anying home by cab.Throughout the whole journey we were just making so much noise.HAHAHA.It was so funny.Reached her house,anying pei me to wait for my bus thats gets to my workplace.Bus came,she went home.Reached my workplace,work was very tiring.Ended work around 10.

Anying:Thanks for the wallet!So unexpected pls.I thought that you were kidding with me all along.Its really very sweet of you to get me a wallet after I just lost it like one day only?I must say that you are nice for once.Lol.Okay,a lot of times you were nice la.Since you said today me sending you home is not counted,I send you home again next time right to your doorstep kays?Oh and yes,talking to me on the phone is good thing,cause I make people happy,see,even the taxi driver agrees.HAHAHA:D

Qianyu:Yes,I think I siao already lor.LOL.I am so happy despite the fact that I lost my wallet.Must be because of you and anying la!Thats why I so happy.HAHAHA:D

All these thoughts locked inside,now you're the first to know.

2007-01-21T12:10:00.000+08:00

Your subtleties,they strangle me.

6am,woke up and went to meet mins to jog at hougang stadium.I only slept for three hours plus and yet I was so energentic.Was quite high.HAHAHA.Ran about 5 rounds,slack for a while,chat,Then went to hougang mall to eat breakfast.Had long johns.Ate some sandwich with egg and bacon plus harshbrown.Yum!We took a really super long time to eat.Then went to shop around hougang mall.Did some bad things.HAHAHA.Whats new?Then was superly tired already.Send mins home then went home.

I and mins talked about the past and a lot of other things,and come to think of it,I must really treasure those who are around me and what I have for now,cause I will never know when they will be gone.I realise a lot today.

I don't know why,but I keep smiling and laughing since yesterday till today.There must be something wrong with me:D

It's my fault when you're blind.It's better that I see it through your eyes.I can't explain what you can't explain.My mind's unweaving,maybe it's best you leave me alone.

2007-01-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

Princess drew this for me!YAY:DThanks princess!So sweet of you pls.I love you:D

I have a crush on you,its driving me crazy:)

Super lazy to blog.My mind is filled with thoughts.Whats more I lost my wallet.Sighs:(So I shall cut everything short.

-Woke up at around 11 plus,watched cartoons till 2 plus then went back to sleep.
-Woke up at 4 plus and got ready for work.But I realised I lost my wallet.No mood to go to work so applied for leave.
-Chat with qianyu and anying on the phone,felt much more better!Thanks guys!:)
-Went to compass to meet mins for dinner,had macs.
-Met cui and rong too.
-Sat outside 7 eleven chat and ate mint ice cream!:)
-Went to sengkang park for a while then went home.

All I can think of is you:)I want to know how you feel,I hope you feel the same way as I do.

2007-01-20T01:35:00.000+08:00

Qianyu:Hey hey!Just read your post and I saw that you left a msg for me.So heres my reply!Yes,you are naggy.But not as naggy as ruixin.HAHAHA.I will concentrate on my Os one la.I rather she be happy then I be sad.I'm very nice to her one okay:)And yes,all this are over already.I'm so happy that all this is over.This past few days been really sad because of her.Finally today when everything over le then I so happy pls:)You also concentrate on your Os.I'm sure that everything will be fine for you soon too.Though you made a decision already,but I believe things will change.Yup!So don't be so unhappy!Anything come and find me.Take care:)

2007-01-19T20:18:00.000+08:00

Guides:)

For you I will.

I must say I'm in a very superly good mood today,which I have no idea why:)Anyway,school was alrights,not much lessons.Slacked a lot.Was let off at 1pm for Cca fair.I and kendra took 30mins to change into our full uniform.HAHAHA.We were happily taking our own sweet time.Went to do our stuff for Cca fair.I was running up and down all the time!Finally when it was time for the display thing,I could stay at one spot.Everything was so great!Shouting cheers,watching my juniors dance and was having so much fun with princess,ruoyu and qianyu.Its just so nice to see that my juniors that they are enjoying it and doing their best for Cca fair.Honestly I was very touched by their effort:)But after Cca fair,it was time for all the scoldings because the Cca fair did not turn out well but at least they tried their best.Broke down and cried:(But felt much better after a while.Slack in the guide room for a while with qianyu,ruoyu and princess.Then went to the canteen to eat.Then went home.

Now everything is fine!I'm so happy!I finally sorted out my thinking:)

Anying:I'm sorry for the mean things I said to you.I really didn't want things to turn out this way and all the things I said,I didn't mean it.Its very hard to explain but I believe you understand why I said all that.I really didn't meant to hurt your feelings.I'M SORRY:(I miss your morning calls:(Though I can wake up without you giving me morning calls,but its just not the same without your morning calls:(I sorry once again:(And yes,I must say this,HELLO!That book that you are taping is MY book!Omg,I wonder how it looks like now,you better take good care of it:)Cheer up!Stop being so sad kays!I owe you a lot a lot of ren qing!You can bully me for all you want if it makes you feel better:)

I want to go sun tanning on sunday!Anyone free?:)

Giving up on you was so hard.I couldn't do it.

2007-01-18T20:31:00.000+08:00

Picture I and ruixin took last christmas,ruixin!I miss you:(

I need to know how you feel.

School was a dread.After school went to Tp open house.After Tp open house went out with ruoyu and qianyu to tampines.Qianyu went off with anying.I and ruoyu went to shop around tampines.Then went to Ps.Then went home.

Not in the mood to blog.Still feeling upset since yesterday.I really don't know if I'm doing the

right thing.Though its not something that I want.But I guess its for the best.Sighs:(

The only thing I'm really happy about was that princess did something really sweet on our 6th month anni.While she was having lesson,she happily held up a paper when I was walking past her class,and it says on the paper,Happy 6th month,I love you!Princess.Awwwww.Its really very sweet of her.And yes,I have to admit she is cute for doing that.HAHAHA.Thanks princess!I love you:)

Ruixin:Its okay,not your fault.Don't have to say sorry.Though you are not here,I still can try and manage everything.Just waiting for you to come back.I will take care.Don't worry too much.I really don't know if I made the right decision.Sighs.Come back soon!:(

If I had my way,I would never get over you.

2007-01-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

She is the one who puts a smile on my face everyday and yet now she is the one who puts a frown on my face.Now everything is over and done with.I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing.Sighs.Feeling so upset now:(

Ruixin,I wished you were here to hug me and let me cry on your shoulder:(

2007-01-17T20:47:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry.

Today school was a dread,I was superly tired.Was late for school again.Tsk.After school had guides.Guides was fun.Then after guides went to eat dinner with qianyu and ruoyu.Had long john.Yum.And I was feeding the both of them.Lol.Then walked ruoyu to her bus stop.Accompanied her to wait for the bus.We were singing,laughing and shouting like nobody business.Was so fun pls.Then ruoyu bus came,pei qian yu to wait for cab.Walked home.

Not really in the mood to blog.Qianyu said things that made me think a lot.Then some things happened.Sighs.Rah:(

I never wanted to give up.

2007-01-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

I've got a double post for 16th jan,first part is below,the second part is this one.Something wrong with my post,so had to post two.

Ruixin:Don't have to say sorry la.Yes,I don't want any other nanny but you.Anna can be my very good friend.But I don't want her to be my nanny.She is my brother,not nanny.Its okay,I and qianyu will understand if you don't wish to come back so soon.I hope so too that you will take a good break for yourself.Enjoy yourself over there kays.You can come back later and take care of us again.HAHAHA.And yes,I l'm living my life to the fullest now.I'm much more independent le.When you come back,the first thing we do is to go play swing! YAY!Take care! anything about it.

Princess:Happy six month anni!I love you!:)

Replies for tags!

Michelle and adel:Eh!Hello?why are you both arguing in my tagboard?LOL.Adel,if you ever like me,I believe the sky will drop now.HAHAHA.

Now it all seems hopeless,but I will still carry on.

2007-01-16T23:35:00.000+08:00

I don't dare to face the things I'm most afraid of.

Today was a bad day.Both school and work.Rah:(

Anying did something really sweet.She came over to my workplace and gave me a bar of toblerone!YAY!:DI was so happy pls.She really cheered me up despite of all the bad things that happened today.Oh and,I must say this,ANYING GOT LOST IN TOWN.HAHAHA.So cute la she.To get lost in town.LOL.Anying!Thanks for coming down to my workplace and pass me a bar of toblerone.I love it:DWhat you did was really so sweet of you:DI know I look like a monkey la,but monkeys like ME are so cute!HAHAHA.I won't kill you cause since you say I look like a monkey,that means I am cute.LOL.

The toblerone she gave me!:D

The fact that I lost some of my loved ones hit me real hard today,I broke down and cried.I can't believe they are gone from my life.I miss them so much:(

I'm just letting you walk away from my life.I don't know why I'm not doing anything about it.