Saturday, December 16, 2006
Yesterday,when I got home.I started to think about a lot of things.About my friends,my relationships,my family.And I realised,I've been running away from all this people,the closest people in my life.Well,I have my reasons.But I don't know how to say it to some of this people,so I gonna post it here.Its been something I been wanted to say to them,but I never got the courage to say it.So yeah,here goes.
Adeline:I guess you are still in china now?Yeah.I hope you will read this when you get back.Just wanted to say thank you for all the times where you were there for me.And never forgetting the times we had fun.Believe me on this okay?I really tried to make things better for you and Anna,I really tried my best.I'm sorry that I messed things up and created trouble for you.I just want to see you happy and and that its all matters to me.But I didn't do a good job in helping you.I'm sorry,I'm really sorry.Maybe someday when all this blows over,we will hang out someday again?I hope so.No matter what,I am still always here for you.
Anna:Hey bro,I still remember all the times where you used to be there for me when I was really down.Whenever I did silly things,you were always there to stop me.We used to do what only brothers would do together.And now,when you are down.I want to be there for you.And yeah,I really tried my best to make you feel better,I tried to help you do the things you want to do.But still things ended up in mess.I'm sorry.That I couldn't help you much.But I tried my best already.I really really tried my best.I just wanna say,I'm sorry.I hope you will get over this soon and lead a new life yeah?It hurts me to see you sad and so depressed.I want to see the anna where she used to be so happy and carefree:)I will always be there for you!
Cui:Hey brother.I just want to say sorry,for all the things have done to you.I don't know what else to say other then sorry.I just hope,we will hang out like the old days,where we used to go.Without having to worry about this and that.Once again,I'm sorry.
Kwai:I don't know if you will ever get to see this.But I hope you will.I will never forget the times where we used to hang out till three four am.Going to jalan kayu and eat prata,stayovers.I remembered clearly,whenever I had problems,you always told me to be strong and you always said things will be alright.You always seem to have way to make everything okay.Maybe I was not a good enough friend,or maybe I did something wrong.And we just drifted apart.I always believed that one day,you would come back.But you never did.Still,I will never forget the times we had:)Thank you for everything you have taught me and being there when I needed someone.Really thank you.I only can hope for a mircale that you will come back someday.and hang out again like we used to.
Min min:You were always there whenever its happy times or unhappy times.I still remember that one time,when my gf broke up with me,you went jogging with me at 7am.And you accompanied me throughout the day even though you were super tired.We used to go fullerton,bridge,new cathy starbucks.Mos burger,playground.We used to hang out a lot and have endless laughter.But I never treasured you and took everything for granted.You were right,I always said and do things without using my brains,I always nelgect you and do things wrong.I just want to say sorry,I hope I'm not too late say all this.Cause I don't want to lose you.I cannot afford to lose you.I'm sorry.I just hope you will forgive me,and I hope that we will still go out and have fun like we used to do.I'm really sorry:(
To you:I will never forget all the times we had together.All the happy times and sad times.I know its too late say all this,but still,if I don't ever say it,I might never get a chance to say it ever again.If I could do all this all over again,I would never make you angry or upset,I would never quarrel with you over small matters.I would treasure everything we had.I would love you with all my heart,and never let you go in my life.I tried my best in saving this relationship,but I failed.Because of having to lost someone,I really loved a lot once before,and I let her go without telling her I loved her very much.I regret.I don't want to regret again,I love you silly.I really love you.I really hope,that someday you will come back.I only can hope for a mircale to happen.I'm right here waiting for you.But no matter what happens,I will still love you and be there for you.Always,I promise:)
This people means more then anything else in world to me.If I could,I would never let them walk away from my life.I would tell them I loved them very much each and everyday without fail.I would never ever take anything for granted.But now its too late.I missed them all very very much:(For now,I will just give whatever I've got,to the people around me,to show them how much I love them and treasure them.And never take things for granted again.My only hope is to bring back my loved ones whom I lost.And never let them walk away from my life ever again.I just want things back to way it was,is that too much to ask for?I only can hope for a mircale.
Santa,I hope you can hear me,I've been good all year.Can you give me back my dearest ones for my christmas present?:'(
12:50 PM
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